It's Complicated

14

As expected, my Mom dropped Jungkook's dad like a bad habit.

I had told her everything that happened and even the stuff I overheard in the shed. She cried so hard that she didn't see it. But I convinced her it wasn't her fault. He was just good at hiding that side of him. She was so upset, thinking she had found a great guy. But more than that, she was upset that Jungkook was being raised by him.

I again convinced her that Jungkook was a strong guy and could handle himself.

"I feel so bad that he lost his Mother."

"Me too Mom."

She threw the large blanket over us both, leaning sideways against the back of the couch. She just stared at me, reaching out to move my hair out of my face. "I know I haven't been the best Mother... I've made many mistakes. But you by far are the best thing in my life Sweetheart."

"Mom..." I choked out, completely caught off guard.

She had watery eyes, but she smiled, "It takes a lot of courage to do what you did for him. And I'm so proud of you."

Seeing my Mom cry is the worst thing ever. But at least these tears weren't from a bad place. And just like laughing, crying is contagious. At least if she starts crying it is. I wiped my face as I scooted closer to her. She pushed the blanket down and held out her arms for me. I tucked myself into her body, my cheek pressed into her chest, and her warmth comforting me.

I closed my eyes as she started humming. The melody resonated with me. It made me remember the night Jungkook held my hand for the first time. He was singing then. His voice was crystal clear in my head. And it was such a pleasant voice.

But as my Mom started singing Killing Me Softly by the Fugees, the voice in my head changed.

Because that song has always been a favorite of Jimin's. He's always loved singing it. Especially the part where the woman let's it all go and flutters her voice just perfectly. And Jimin could do the same. So anytime it came on the radio he'd turn it up high and sing with passion. And all I could do was stare in awe.

Thinking about it gets my heart fluttering.

"Mom?"

"Hm," she asked softly, going back to humming.

"I think I like two boys..."

I was a little scared to tell her, but she just rubbed my arm, "Tell me about it Sweetheart. I'm guessing it's Jimin and Jungkook?"

I lifted up and looked at her with shock, "How..."

She winked, "I'm more observant than you think baby. So! Tell me."

I blushed as I leaned back into her and got comfortable. Starting from the very beginning. The moment I realized I was in love with Park Jimin, to becoming lab partners with Jungkook, to Jimin's jealousy and the kiss, to telling him we need space, and up to Jungkook's confession and our kiss. She listened carefully, giving me all the time I needed to explain my feelings.

"They're both so different, but-"

"You can't help but have feelings for them both."

I nodded my head, "Yeah."

"It's hard not to compare the two, but try and figure out what really makes you like them. Is it their looks? Their talents?"

"No of course not, it's not anything like that. They're both amazing. Both really caring and sweet...." I frowned, "Maybe I don't deserve either one."

"You listen her little lady, I didn't raise you to think you don't deserve a man. Men should be deserving of you. Understand?"

I nodded quickly into her chest. "I'm sorry... I guess I'm just unsure of how I feel. I mean, I don't even know if Jimin likes me to begin with."

Her body rumbled as she chuckled, I could hear her laugh echo in her chest. "Honey, no man gets jealous and kisses a girl if they aren't in love with said girl."

"But-"

"No Sweetheart, trust me. He may not have realized it then, but I can guarantee you he knows it now."

"How can you be so sure?"

"Women's intuition?" She giggled, "I've been on this earth for a long time, so you pick up on these things. Men aren't as complicated as you may think. It's women you gotta be careful of."

I smirked, "We're too complicated for our own good."

"Damn right," she laughed.

I laughed along, never really hearing her curse, so it felt good too. "I guess it just comes down to how I feel?"

"That's right Sweetheart. Think about who makes you happy. Think about a turmoil in your life... and who's the person that comes to mind. The person that's there for you to help you. And the same goes for fun. Who do you see yourself laughing with and having fun with? Take the time you need, ok?"

I hugged my Mom tight, "Ok."

She smiled as she hugged me back, "I say we have some ice cream before dinner, how does that sound?"

I smiled wide into her warm chest, "That sounds perfect."