my mother. those days when my cat shows up at home. my cat's kittens. rain. paper boats and memories of me failing to make any. paper airplanes and memories of my childhood best friend trying to teach me how to make them. the pool. the peace of floating on the water. having a good workout and staying in shape. the flowers in my garden and how their cheery yellow and luxurious pink meet as their stems intertwine. endless possibilities. the thought of going to college and studying what i love. the urge to be better than i was yesterday. the determination to prove haters wrong. french. long, late night conversations with an old friend. ghalib poetry. rupi kaur poetry. olivia gatwood poetry. all poetry. good clothes. spontaneous shopping trips to h&m. libraries with shelves full of books that have the musty smell of another epoch within them. my mother's beautiful art. the dream of letting the paint flow from her veins into mine someday. (you).
-things that make me hold on
