His Medicine

10. Possession

Y/N P.O.V.

I couldn't recollect myself from the previous events, all that happened in merely minutes. Sudden rush of emotions, insecurities, desperation, needs all came and disappeared in a blink of moment. And..
He wanted to kiss me? Only the thought of it making my body jolting up with new static. New excitement and anticipation filling my paralyzed soul.
That was sinful for me. For him.
I couldn't afford any of this at this moment. I'll have to stop myself from bursting out everytime near him. I couldn't afford him into any of matter, specially after seeing him dead serious asking about him. I would never let him engaged in any of the mess.

Suddenly the door clicked open, showing a smiling Jisoo. I was too my thinking to response anything.
" Is everything okay Y/N ? " she asked with a certain concern of her face.
I tried to act normal.
" Yeah.. everything's ok. Just was spaced out. You're going to your friend's birthday ? "
Luckily, I remembered that she was supposed to attend a party which helped me change the topic.
" I don't know, i don't feel like leaving you like that. " she said keeping her head low.
I made my way to her taking her hands slightly squeezing it. It made my heart warm at her concern for me but also felt guilty for which she's sacrificing.
" Hey, just go and have fun. I promise that I'll be fine. I'm a big girl you know " smiling affectionately at her.
" I know but.. "
" No buts okay? You have to listen, beside you would get some quality time with Jungkook. Just go okay? Don't worry about me. I'll take my medicines and go to sleep. I'll be super fine. "
" Unnie.. " suddenly she called me that making my heart melt, like she'd always been a family.
I embraced her appreciating this new bond that becoming stronger and more important as the days passing.
" I'm so glad to have you Unnie.. "
" I'm the one who should be glad Jisoo. Thank you for everything. Now go get ready, don't you want to impress Jungkook? And don't dare come home early and i won't even mind if don't come at all" i said playfully. She just giggled, like little girl. The blooming love that i could she in her eyes was identical, fresh just like my younger self.

🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺

As Jisoo left, i again found myself sitting by the window looking at the black carpet now decorated white diamonds sparkling. I found myself drawing unintented patterns connecting the sparkles letting my mind wandering around the past moments.

Every passing time making my nerves jumping like crazy. With the big steps that he was taking, making me hard to cope up as my wrists are secured on his firm grip. The wind making the tie of his uniform swinging back and forth as we were making our way out of the school. He was always so caring and sweet to me, being the only boy that I'm close with from our childhood. I was little surprised and taken aback when he just came out of nowhere pulling me after him when i was talking to my project partner, who was kind of friend too. He was a boy with intelligence and always helped me with the studies. He was a shy kind of person around me. I even caught looking at me through his big round glasses between our work.
The boy in front me stopped suddenly spinning around facing me coming closer to me until there's only a few inches between us. My heart beating violently inside it's cage. His beautiful brown eyes looking back at me but now that i see there's sudden kind of darkness of them. Unintentionally my steps going backwards and his coming forwards.

" W-why did you bring me l-like this? I was studying.. "
A mocking chuckle.
" Studying? But it didn't seem like seeing him looking at you like that " his voice was harse, lower toned than usual.
That unusual tone making me more nervous. He always was possessive when it came to me but this time it was different, something more passionate.
Seeing him that perfect and attractive in front of me, so close making my feeling rushing through my veins. Of course, i loved him even i didn't know what love was.
Suddenly his fist making contact with the wall at my side making me flinch.
" You won't talk to him anymore, you understand me! "
I didn't know what to do, i shifted my gaze to his now red fists. I took his hand in mine giving him a death glare, his eyes suddenly softened with shock.
" How dare you hurt yourself like that! You pabo! " i took a clean soft piece of fabric out of my school bag, wetting it with my water bottle and placed it his wrists. He hissed in pain.