Life Led us Here

~What if I Like You~

COLBY
I sit on Sam's bed as he looks down at the floor, I'm pretty sure he likes me, he popped an awkward boner in class today. I put my arm around him and started tickling his neck, just to lighten up the mood, I heard a giggle, I started tickling him, he tickled me back, for once in my life, I laughed, I suddenly forgot about everything I've been through. When I'm with sam, I feel protected and I feel like I can be myself around him, I have never had the affection he gives me. We lay in the bed and try to catch our breath. "Hey colby." Sam says, he sits up and looks at me. "Yeah." I say getting up. "I feel like I can tell you anything, so like, I'm gay." Sam says, my heart started beating faster, I awkwardly smile. "Sam, I-Im straight." I say, he doesn't say anything, he just looks down, I see a tear fall down his face. I pull him into one of the biggest hugs I have ever gave him, there's no way he doesn't like me. He releases our hug and puts out his hands, I take them. We look into each other's eyes, I could feel so much tension you could take a knife and cut it. My heart starts beating so fast that my chest started to hurt, "Colby, I-think your cute, just saying." He says, I smile and look at the floor, "I think you cute too, but, in a friend way." I say giggling, he looks at me and hugs me, I hear him sniffle. "I'm happy I met you, you've changed my life, I'm sorry if this is awkward for you." Sam says, my whole body felt warm and fuzzy, but I did feel bad that I couldn't do anything to fix his feelings for me, my phone goes off, ruining the moment, it was my dad.
Dad
Where the hell are you, you better not be with that kid, your dead if you are. Come the fuck home now.

I start to cry, "colby what's wrong." Sam asks, he looks at my phone, he puts his arms around me. I start crying harder when I hear my phone buzz again.

Dad
COME THE FUCK HOME LITTLE BITCH YOUR GOING TO GET BEATEN WHEN YOU COME HOME, SO BE READY FAGGOT.

Sam tucks his head into the crook of my neck trying to comfort me, I hear him sniffle. "Sam don't cry, I'm the one getting hurt, I need to go." I say through my tears, sam lets me go and cries harder. "Sam, I'll be ok, promise you won't worry?" I ask, I felt bad because I know how much he cares about me, but I needed him to stop worrying right now. "I promise." Sam says through his tears, I smile and go to my house, my phone goes off again.
Dad
COME HOME FUCKER, MORE BEATING EVERY SECOND YOUR NOT HERE.

I cry as I walk into my house, my dad slams the door shut and pulls me into the house by my shirt, I cry harder. "Dad please!" I yell, he slaps me across the face as tears run down my face, he gets down on the ground and lifts up my chin, I lose my breath, but I get it back, I cry. "STOP CRYING LITTLE ASSHOLE! YOUR THE REASON YOUR MOTHER LEFT ME! IM GONNA SLAP THE FUCK OUT OF YOU!" My dad screams in my face, I cry harder and harder as he continuously slaps me and punches me. When he's finally done I run into my room and shut my door. I go into my bathroom and grab the blade sitting on my sink, I bring it closer to my arm. All of a sudden I start to hear voices, colby sam is here for you. Your not alone..........think about sam..........just ignore him. The voices stop I slide down the bathroom wall and put my head in my knees, "SAM I NEED YOU!" I scream to myself, I get up and start packing my things, after I was done I went back over to Sam's house. Once I got there I walked in and sam took me upstairs into his room, shutting the door behind him. "Colby, I heard you screaming, it's ok, I'm right here, I'll never leave you." Sam says, he pulls me into a hug, I cry into his shoulder. "It's ok Colbs I'm here." He says, he looks into my eyes. "Colby, what if I like you?" He asks, I didn't know how to respond, he looks down at the floor and cries, I pulled him closer and hugged him for a while, suddenly all of my feelings went away, and I lived in the moment. "I would say it's ok, your my gay best friend." I say, hugging him again.