Song: Inner Demons by Julia Brennan
I'm tired.
Not in the way where you can feel
Waves of fatigue hitting you,
Like a shipwreck survivor in the water,
I'm tired.
Not in the way that I struggle to stay awake
During a long car ride
Like that reluctant four year old you may know,
I'm tired.
Not in the 'my eyelids are so heavy
And I'm against the clutches of sleep'
That may be faced before an exciting day,
I'm tired.
I'm the Titanic,
I've hit the iceberg,
I'm sinking in an ocean of self hatred,
People theorizing what broke,
What was wrong?
I'm tired.
I'm not a passenger,
I'm not the driver,
I'm the pedestrian who jumps
Ahead of a moving car,
Waiting to be hit,
So I won't deal with the endless pain,
Of that dark cloud above,
I'm tired.
I want to sleep to escape,
But my brain isn't done thinking,
Thinking,
Thinking,
I want to die,
I hate myself,
Thinking,
No one will ever love me,
Thinking,
My friends pity me,
Thinking,
I'm a disappointment,
Thinking,
I want it to end,
But I also want to fight
