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Text Message Philosphy

My goldfish had died while I was talking to the person I shall not name and only use the snapchat nickname I gave him. And I was also panicking about seeing a WGI group at my school because I didn't know who would be there. And I became all..philosophical and shit. So have these texts.

Me
|Funny thing is, I never learned to love them, I just did.
|Such small little things so innocent
|Wanting to live
|Like we do

Deli
|Everything dies eventually

Me
|Goldfish are born to die
|Just like us

Deli
|Everything is born to die

Me
|We only want to live
|We live to die

Deli
|Just depends on how the life is lived

Me
|Interesting

Deli
|Kinda

Me
|I find us fascinating

Deli
|Why
|Other than that

Me
|We live for nothing

Deli
|Not true

Me
|True.
|Very true.
|We just try to make life good
|But what doesn't make sense to me

Deli
|We live to make the most out of our lives

Me
|Is we waste it. We do dumb things. I might die tomorrow, or the next day, or the day after that
|Or in years

Deli
|It's either by doing or being nothing
|Hopefully years

Me
|So why am I wasting my time sitting in my useless cage of a head, thinking about who's gonna show up to see matrix because if nobody shows up, I'll be alone, and I don't want to be alone watching a group because then they'll see me as weird just being the only one there but I don't want to be with just one person as well and it has to be specific people because I'm only comfortable with certain people. That's what I'm thinking of. Why don't I just get up and do, and not care? But I do care. I care immensely. I care what everyone thinks. When really nobody cares at all. Nobody's gonna care 100 years from now that I worried. Nobody's gonna care when I'm dead because then we'll all be dead, and who's left to care? No one.

Me
|Why do humans come up with petty shit when they might die tomorrow.

Me
|It's all useless. So why not make the best of it instead of making everyone miserable? Including themselves?
|Hm..oh well
|Maybe I'm just thinking too much

Deli
|Idk Livy.

Me
|Humans are self destructive. And maybe I'm contradicting myself as I speak. Proving my own theory right by destroying myself

Deli
|Maybe

Me
|Humans are weird.