i was cautious the second time.
you were the first to approach me even.
and after everything,
i grew stronger.
but the ideal image of having you back was bringing me weak in every part of my body.
so,
being completely mindless,
i let you own me whole.
it was so easy how much I cared for you,
and it was easier when you gave such a static apology.
but my mind wanted to hear it,
and just let it all go so we can finally have some happiness.
but my heart knew from the moment you reached out to me,
grabbing my skin,
shredding it,
that it was going to be that same blue circle again.
i wanted to stop,
but there were so many errors.
and programs that i didn't want kept appearing with every inhale of frustration.
it took a few months for me to close it down.
but sometimes,
i let it welcome itself in.
and i let the tab open.
the virus was back.
dressed up,
with familiar intentions,
but with an unknown identity.
but i knew who it was.
and what it wanted.
YOU ARE READING
words i could never say
Poetrywords that i will never say to the people who love me, used to love me, and to myself. hope you will listen to what I've been waiting to say for awhile.
