I Wanna Talk Tonight

Chapter 8- Why?

I knew right when I saw Noel that I had to tell him about Liam but I couldn't stop fucking crying, I just felt so damn bad. Noel brought me into my room and sat down on the bed with me trying to console me, it felt nice to have him with me; "Ivy, tell me whats wrong?"He asks "Liam stormed into my room saying you were here but he seemed upset about it?" here it goes I guess, time to tell him. I sit up pulling myself together trying to find the right words to say, "Noel, remember that morning I came out of Liam's room and we met outside the door?" I ask and he nods in confusion, I take a deep breath and continue on "Well, I may have told a lie," I say "I wasn't making sure Liam wasn't dying, we actually had sex." He wasn't saying anything or showing emotion, what the fuck, what do I do?! I snapped my fingers in front of his face and he looked at me with tears welling in his eyes, "So what you're telling me is you had a go with Liam, then a week later with me?" He asks wiping a tear from his cheek that's when I began crying again "I'm so fucking sorry Noel, I know I'ma whore and I've hurt both of you and that was never my intention" I weep, again Noel didn't say anything just stared at me. "I just want you to know, I'm fucking really REALLY upset," Noel explains "and I think for now you should just head back home and we can talk when we get back in a month" I completely agreed with him, we all needed time apart from eachother; he actually took it way more mature then Liam did, but that was Liam always a drama dick and Noel hated drama so I just did what he said and made my way back to Manchester. I haven't seen the boys or heard from them since, but they come back home today and I was scared as fuck.