Just Remarried

●32. Holding On And Letting Go●

June 10, 2016

The next few days passed in blur with Rishaan living happily with his family in his old house. He loved having breakfast and dinner with his whole family. He loved cuddling with Ansh and Disha at nights. He loved flirting with Amaya all the time. He loved being his old self. But there was something new. Something he didn't know but loved. It felt like as if something that had been removed from his life was now back. It felt like as if all the dark clouds that had hovered over his life just moved away, leaving a bright sky behind. He felt lighter as if he had no loads of past on his shoulders. More than anything, he felt alive and happy with the people he loved.

Resting his palms on the railing and gazing up at the starry sky, he stood on the terrace. The stars looked so mesmerizing. They were scintillating. They twinkled and shone above his head. He was never so fond of darkness and stars or moon but now, he felt like they were giving him hopes. He kept staring up at the sky and an automatic smile crept over his lips as his tensed up nerves started to relax. He kept staring at the sky, trying to map the stars and make shapes of his own imagination.

"Obsessed with them?" A voice brought him back to the present as he was lost into the beauty of magnificent and breathtaking sight before his eyes.

"You love to scare me, don't you?" Rishaan asked before exhaling heavily and composing himself.

"Obviously! I'm your brother, after all." A side of Adi's lips twitched upward as he said.

Rishaan shook his head at his reply, a small smile never leaving his lips though.

They both stood there for some time, not saying anything and gazing up at the sky. A heavy but peaceful silence set between them. Adi changed his gaze and looked at Rishaan who was still looking up at the sky with a small smile on his lips. Adi also smiled and said, "So my brother finally loves nights and darkness?"

Rishaan changed his gaze and looked at him with the same smile. He nodded his head and said, "It was never about nights and darkness. But yeah, whenever I watch stars and moon they remind me of Ansh and Disha; my moon and stars."

Adi's smile widened a bit at how he compared moon and stars with Ansh and Disha. He liked how he indirectly called them light to his darkness. Narrowing his eyes, he asked, "If it's not about nights and darkness then what? What are you afraid of?"

Rishaan's smile died in a matter of seconds. He didn't know what to exactly say. "It's- it's about not finding light again." His voice was low and barely audible as if he was insecure about sharing what he exactly felt and thought.

Adi couldn't help but stare at him. He knew his brother was a over thinker and his thoughts were mostly negative but this? It kind of seemed childish to him.

"There's always a bright day after every dark night." Adi said, moving his hand on the railing and then placing it on Rishaan's hand gently. "And sometimes you also need darkness." He gently pressed his hand and Rishaan looked at him with his eyes turning moist. "It teaches you to value the light you have in your life."

Rishaan pressed his lips together and smiled. He looked down and Adi took his hand back. And again a heavy silence settled between them, a bit awkward this time.

"Ah," Rishaan groaned, throwing his head up before wiping his eyes in a quick motion. He hated being emotional in front of people, after all. "Sometimes my stupid brother makes me feel like the stupidest person alive." He smiled cheekily at Adi as he said, masking his emotions so royally.

Adi narrowed his eyes, showing fake hurt and said, "You can never compliment me directly! Asshole!"

Rishaan laughed a bit at what he said and then shook his head before dropping his gaze, clenching and unclenching his hands into fists.