My descriptive fiction and story bits

"Would it be okay"

Oof late night writing but it's here for something after forever-

"Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing more tired with each passing day

They say 'no pain no gain', these words drilled in my brain
But if pain is gain why can't I just entertain
The thoughts that complain 'I'm no longer sane!'
I'm dripping and dropping right down to the drain
The longer and harder I try to remain
The harder it gets for my thoughts to refrain
I'm falling and crying and preaching and lying
And all that it's doing is making me dying
It's just been so long since I could go flying
And I can feel myself giving up on trying
I hardly know places I've been,
Are the thoughts finally starting to win?
If I just gave up would it be such a sin?
I swear that I'm fighting the doubt seeping in
Maybe one day I can find myself free
Soaring up high like a bird or a bee
Instead of suffocating in fur like a flea
The thoughts finally not tormenting me

Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing more tired with each passing day

Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing much weaker with each passing day

As much as I still want to fly
The thoughts make me think that I'll die
'You're just not enough, go give up and cry!'
What strength I have left feels just like a lie
So what can I do but sit back and weep?
I'm sorry if this makes me sound like a creep
I just need someone, a friend I can keep
To guard from the thoughts; I just want to sleep

Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing more tired with each passing day

Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing much weaker with each passing day

Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing more tired with each passing day

Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm sick of this role I make myself play
Would it be okay, if I'm not okay?
I'm growing much weaker with each passing day

Would it be okay?
'Cause I'm not okay...."

Yessss I wrote something close-ish to song format cool
If only I knew how to choose the musical aspects of it-