Just A Ghost

14

Alix pushed me down on the bed almost aggressively. He climbed over me with a cocky smile on his face. "I've been waiting for this for a long time." He sighed and bent down to kiss my neck.

"Me too." I admitted with a slight moan.

"You know since I first laid eyes on you I've wanted this." He sat up on his knees and pulled his shirt over his head. "I've wanted it so bad." He undid his belt and slid it out of the belt loops. "Maria you are so sexy." He ran his hands down my waist and grabbed the bottom of my shirt, pulling it off. "So sexy." He repeated. He started to take off his pants-

I awoke with a gasp. Sweat had collected on my forehead and my heart was racing. Beside me Kevin was sleeping peacefully. Tomorrow was our wedding, and I had months of guilt and pain under my belt.

I climbed out of bed and into the hall. My hands shook as I dialed the number on my phone. It rang twice before a very tired Alix answered. "Maria-?"

"I have to tell him" I was nearly in tears.

"No!" He shouted, now fully awake. "You can't, you know it would ruin your love and our band."

"I have to!"

"Tell him about Bryan not about me."

"I didn't have sex with Bryan." I growled.

"Well pretend like we didn't either." He said softly.

"I can't do that." I wrang my hands together.

"Why not, Maria, please, for the sake of the music."

"Alix, you don't understand!" I slouched against the wall.

"Yes I do, you feel guilty, yes I do too, but it happened, and it's over, and it should be forgotten."

"Alix it's more than-"

"Just be happy with Kevin, he doesn't need to know anything, I promise things will be-"

"I'm pregnant." I spoke fast.

"What?"

"I said I'm pregnant."

"Is it-" he trailed off.

"I don't know, I found out a few days ago, and well-" I too trailed off.

"Had sex with both of us recently?" He drew out his words.

"Yes."

There was silence on the line. "I-" a pause. "Look, just, worry about your wedding for now okay?"

I nodded and then remembered that he can't see me. "Okay."

"Goodnight Maria."

"Goodnight Alix."

I hung up and headed back to the room. Kevin was sitting up in bed rubbing his eyes. "Who were you talking to?" He yawned.

"Alix." I admitted.

"About?"

"I was freaking out about later and he just sort of helped me calm down." I lied.

"Come here baby." I crawled back into bed and he warped his arms around me. "Everything will be perfect." He kissed my forehead. "I promise. Now please go back to bed?"

"I love you Kevin." I said for the first time.

He looked at me, confused. "I love you too Maria." He kissed me again.

I laid down on his chest and he rubbed my back until I drifted back to sleep.