Just A Ghost

5

My eyes opened to blurs. "At least this time didn't require a hospital" manny laughed. I pushed myself up as my head spun.

"You okay sweetie?" Kevin helped me sit up.

"I think so" I muttered as my vision slowly came into focus. We were on the tour bus and it was moving.

"What made you pass out anyway?" Kevin asked.

I looked past him at Bryan whose face was flushed with worry and concern. His eyes seemed to plead for me to keep quiet. "Just flabbergasted" I sighed and smiled back up at Kevin.

"Dumb it down?" He winked.

"Surprised"

"Of my kiss?" He laughed. "It was an experiment"

"And how'd that go?' I asked as I used Alix to pull myself into standing position.

"Got to run a few more test before I know the results" he winked again. "Anyway how does camping sound?"

"Sounds amazing" I admitted.

Evan sat and stared at me as he ate a KitKat. "Do you think I'd be able to adopt you?" He muttered half to himself and half to us.

"Not without guardian permission" Manny said without looking up from his phone.

"Oh"

"Why are you always on that thing?" I didn't mean for it to come out rude but it did.

"Ghost like you, who get happy when we talk to them, when we acknowledge them, I stay on it for that reason, to help people."

"You truly are a savior" I smiled.

"Well Pikachu helps" he threw the stuffed animal at me.

"Hey!" I giggled and threw it back weakly.

"Maria can I talk to you?" Bryan spoke with a tone of concern. I nodded and he pulled me aside. "I like you, Kevin likes you, Alix likes you" he paused. "Just know I'm always here for you" he skimmed the bus then kissed me quickly. "I promise"

I sat awkwardly. I've never had more than one guy like me, hell I've never had one guy like me. I've never really liked anybody other than band members and now band members like me. I nearly fainted but Bryan held me up. "No, no, no, we don't need that again" he pressed his hand against the side I had cut and I winced in sheer pain. "Are you okay?" He lifted the side of my shirt to reveal the still fresh wounds. He pulled the shirt down and hugged me tight. "Why?" He whispered.

"I'm selfish" I muttered into his shoulder.

"Maria I promise you are not selfish"

"I tried to kill myself in front of them" I sniffed. "If I succeeded they might've broken up, or worse."

The bus stopped and Evan stood up. "I'll go get us checked in" I looked out the window. It was pitch black, the clock above Mannys head said it was close to one. I remained by Bryan's side as everybody else was getting jittery.

"I'll go grab a pile of wood" manny stood up and finally put his phone away.

It was left me, Bryan, Kevin, and Alix. "It's nice to have some days off" Alix faked a laugh. The atmosphere in the room became tense.

"I think she's asleep" Bryan lied as he held me closer.

"Wake her up then" Alix offered. "We were going out by the fire."

I sat up as the bus began to move again. "Sounds fun but cold" I yawned.

"Here" Kevin smiled as he wrapped a grey and black checkered sweatshirt around my shoulders. I held it tight around me and smiled. It smelled like him. Bryan put up the hood and laughed when I glared at him for it. We sat awkwardly on the bus as Manny and Evan worked on getting it parked properly. I still clung onto Bryan, to be honest I didn't know why, I just did. Once the bus was in place Manny began working on starting a fire while Evan and Alix got out foldable chairs.

Bryan, Kevin, and I remained inside. I had began drifting off to sleep until Kevin lifted me up. "Hey cutie" he smiled and kissed my forehead.

He carried me out to the fire and sat down with me on his lap. The fire had just begun yet it was warm and bright. It blazed a deep orange with blue lining the bottoms. Kevin slid off his shoes amd socks and held his bare feet near the flame. One of his arms was wrapped around my waist while the other ran through his hair. I loved how he looked when he did that. I giggled and kissed his cheek. His face quickly flushed a deep red as he looked at me in shock. "I'll get you for that" he winked and tickled my uncut side. I laughed and grabbed his hands so he couldn't do more.

By now we were all positioned around the fire, the boys were all engaged in conversation while I sat peacefully examining Kevin's face. His eyes had heavy bags under them and it occurred to me hat he hasn't gotten much sleep this whole tour let alone the past few nights. I let go of his left hand and ran the back of my hand along his cheek. It was soft and smooth. He turned and kissed my hand then went back to his conversation. I decided to copy Kevin and I slid my shoes and socks on and pushed my legs closer to the burning flames. Compared to his my legs were short, I rested them on the top of his legs and we both smiled at the warmth. It was nice how well our body's seemed to go together. I wanted to kiss him again but I noticed Bryan staring at us so I refrained.

Kevin's legs began tapping as Manny drummed on his legs. Kevin gently sang into my ear and this time it was my face that turned tomato red. It was nearly two AM now I supposed and we were the only ones outside at the campsite, figures. Not many normal people were wide awake and singing this late, but than again, none of us were wide awake, most were past the point of being tired even.

As cool gust of wind blew and I cuddled closer to Kevin. His bare arms wrapped tight around me. The fire continued to warm out feet and his breath was warming my neck.

Alix walked onto the bus and came out with his guitar, the boys started to play Zombie Girl and my face flushed even more red. I held onto Kevin tighter. His body was warm against the freezing air. I rested my head on Kevin's shoulder trying hard to keep the wind from blowing my hair into his mouth. I gripped his tank top and closed my eyes. I rested on his shoulder and listened to his voice. My smile got bigger. As it got colder he scooted closer to the fire, his arms still wrapped tight around me.

"When are you going to ask her?" Manny asked assuming I was asleep.

Kevin must've thought the same because he replied. "When the time is right" he kissed my forehead.

"Is Bryan asleep?" Alix laughed quietly.

"Drooling too" Evan gaged.

Kevin picked me up and carried me into the warmth of the bus. He laid me gently in his bunk and threw Pikachu up too. I noticed something I hadn't before as I made myself comfortable, Kevin's clothes were piled up on the wormer of his bunk. I grabbed a shirt and hugged it as I wrapped the sweatshirt tighter. I drifted off the sleep with the sweet scent of Kevin.