Life On Death

Balancing Relationships

Vanessa-

I look down at my planner only to learn that it was Monday, I am supposed to hang out with Erik today along with Tuesday, and Friday. I saw Seb Wednesday and Thursday. It was hard hanging out with both people without the other one knowing. I had been using this system for around a month now. I had no time of my own on the weekdays but it was the only thing keeping Sebastian alive.

Sebastian wanted to do things like go on dates and go to a bunch of places with me. A lot of the time I had to make an excuse to avoid it. If anybody knew I was with him they would tell Erik, and then he would break up with me. I did not want to lose him.

At one point I considered telling the police that Sebastian blackmailed me to make me date him but I couldn't do that to my best friend, I didn't want to land him in jail, and then he would actually kill himself.

The bell rang. School was out. I got into my car and drove over to Erik's house, he had barely beaten me there. It was his turn to plan what we did. He had planned a long walk through the botanical gardens. I was very close to his house so we could easily get there. As we got to the gardens I saw someone familiar. They called me over to them and I started to freak out, having a major panic attack. Erik asked me what was wrong and I told him it was nothing. Even though it was something, it was something very big. Sebastian was walking toward us, looking right at us.