Restrain Me #WATTYS2019

-the night we met-

May 17 2007

I sat on my best friend, Sloan's, bed as she rummaged through her closet like she was on fire.

"Bink, it's just a party, relax." I moaned as I leaned back on the bed, resting my head against the soft pillows. She quickly turned to glare at me as she tosses a small black dress at me.

"Don't even with that dumbass shit. This is THE house party Milly. You're lucky I could even get us invited as juniors, well now seniors." I rolled my eyes as I reached on her bedside table, grabbing the pre rolled joint from last night, quickly sparking it up.

"It's a stupid high school party Bink." I spoke softly as I let the smoke fall from my mouth. "This dress is cute tho." I picked up the black dress, admiring the sweetheart neckline and stretchy material as Sloan grinned at me.

"That's your outfit." I looked at her in complete and utter shock. I NEVER showed this much skin. You were lucky to see my scarred up arms at school, let alone most of my legs.

"You're crazy! My hoodie and jeans will work just fine thank you." I flopped back on the bed, quickly regretting my words as my best friend pounced on me, her eyes wild.

"Go shower, shave, and meet me back in here." I wanted to tell her to fuck off, she was the only one who actually cared about this stupid house party to kick off the summer. "And don't argue. I'm not kidding about this. You have to try to have a normal high school experience. You work too much." She did have a very strong point, but I hated parties. I didn't fit in with the drugs and drinking, and besides, boys never thought I was pretty.

"If we die, I'm blaming it completely on you." She laughed, and quickly flicked me off as she went back to searching for her own outfit. I grabbed the tiny dress and made my way into the hall to do as I was told.

"Oh! Colson Baker is going!" Colson Baker. Why did that name seem so fucking familiar? Why did my body shiver just by hearing that name? I shook it off and just closed the bathroom door, locking it behind me. Okay Amelia, you can do this. It's a party, you're 16. You have to stop acting like a child. I shook my head as I pulled my long light blonde hair from the messy bun it had been in all day. "Hurry! I wanna Leave by seven!" Sloan's scream snapped me back into the real world and I quickly pulled my hoodie over my head, leaving me in my black skinny jeans and a blue bra.

"Anything for you Mom!" I joked back at her, hearing her laugh back as she pulled at the handle to the bathroom.

"Okay bitch let me in. I don't need to shave or shower so imma start doing my hair and makeup." I rolled my eyes at myself in the mirror as I flipped the lock, and soon she stood in front of me. "Shit I totally forgot about that!" She began giggling as she looked at the underside of my right arm, where the words "Sex Drugs RockandRoll" (like on Kells side) were tattooed in black ink.

"How could you, you did it dumbass." We both laughed thinking about the night just a year ago when we got high as fuck with some friends of hers, Brandon and- "Holy fuck." I whispered. Colson. Brandon and Colson were there. I held his hand when Sloan used the tattoo gun we had stolen from her older brother, Sin. "Colson." I whispered, Sloan smiled and shook her head.

"There it is." She joked as she pulled her large makeup bag from under the bathroom sink. "Shower. It's already five woman." I was still in a daze, taken aback by the memories rushing my brain from that night. I stripped of the rest of my clothes, climbing into the shower as everything came back.

"Come on Mil!" Sloan shouted from the door, I could hear two male voices laughing and talking with her as I checked my outfit one last time in the mirror. My black skinny jeans and my blue tye-dyed and ripped Metallica t shirt and a black zip up hoodie. I pulled my long blonde hair into a messy ponytail and made my way to the sounds of the voices. "About damn time." Sloan groaned as she slung her arm around my shoulder. "Amelia, this is Brandon." The tall dark skinned boy in front of me smiled wide as he stuck his hand out for me to shake, and quickly pulled me in for one of those bro type hugs.