5SoS Preferences

He finds you Self Harming

Calum-

   "Just one more." you thought salty tears running down you face placing the blade to your wrist feeling the warm blood trail down your arm "Why am I such a fuck up?" you sobbed pressing the blade harder in your arm "(y/n) let me in!' Calum pounded at the door "No, just let me die, p-please I just need to die!" "(Y/N) Please open the door baby, please just open the door!" he was begging you now and you can here his quiet sobs and you finally unlocked the door "Oh my god (y/n)!" Calum screamed picking you up and setting you on his lap as he started the water in the bathtub "Please dont ever do this again. Please." he sobbed in your neck "Please (y/n). Please." he repeated breaking your heart even more.

Ashton-

    You stuck your finger down you throat once more making sure all of the food was out of your stomach

"Babe are you okay? You've been in there a while." Ashton asked soflty nocking on the door
(His P.O.V)

I heard her quiet sniffles "Y-yeah im fine. Just give me a minute ill. be right out." she said "Please let me in Babe I know your crying." I stood back and heard the door unlock I opened it and found her standing on the scale wiping tears that are falling down her pale cheeks "Oh baby, what are you doing to yourself?" I asked picking her up and taking her to our bedroom "Well I went to the gym this morning and I worked really hard and when I came home a weighed myself and I gained three pounds and I just want to look good for you Ash, because you deserve the best." she said wiping her face with her sleeves "Babe listen to me, you are the best and the most I could ask for please just dont ever forget I couldnt ever love anyone like the way I do you, please dont ever doubt yourself or think your not good enough I love you so much (y/n)." "Oh Ash, I love you too." she said and stuffed her head in my chest

Luke-

   Luke was still on tour and each day you missed him more and more, you guys talked everyday but it wasnt the same. Soon yous started skipping meals and staying up all night thinking about him. He could tell there was somthing wrong by the way you acted over Skype calls or how you talked over the phone. "Babe im sorry only a couple more months and we will be together, I promise." "Thats too long, I need you babe." you said softly crying "Im so sorry I miss you like crazy you have no idea Ash- stop! Hey babe im sorry Ash is being an ass I got to go!" he shouted into the phone hanging up, you took the phone from your ear set it on the bathroom counter. "All of this hurt, all of this pain and heartache could be gone if you just downed the bottle of pills." the tiny voice in the back of your head reminding you. After thinking you take a handful of asprins and hold them up to your mouth, tears streaming down your face "(y/n)? What are you doing?" it was Luke "I came to surprise you, why are you doing this to you; to us?" "Babe I-" "No stop, I dont understand why you think your the only one that is hurting you dont know how many times I skip band practice just to go cry alone, but I would never try to end my life because I know I would get to see you soon." "Luke, im sorry I just couldnt handle the pain I couldnt eat I couldnt sleep, I couldnt even breath without having pain in my chest because I missed you so much Luke, your my sunshine, my happiness." "Oh baby, im so sorry, please just...come one tour with me?" ge asked shocking you a little "Of course Luke!" you said dropping the pills down the sink and jumping into his arms. "I missed you sunshine."

Michael-

   "You know (y/n) I didnt even want to have a kid, you where a mistake!" your mother yelled at you making silent tears stream down your face "Mom, dont say that your drunk." "But you know the most honest people are the angry and the drunk they say." she said laughing. you ran up to your room and called your boyfriend Michael "Hey Mikey, can you come and get me im leaving my mom." "Uh, yeah sure babe, be there in 5 minutes." he said confused "Okay thanks love you" you said and hung up the phone not giving him time to say bye.
*His house*

You woke up sweaty and gasping for air, you sat up and looked at Michael who was fast asleep you put your elbows on your knees and your hands in you hair "Im such a mistake" you whimper pulling your hair causing to to groan quite loudly "Babe, whats wrong? " Michael asked sitting up next to you and rubbing your back "My mother doesnt love me, and im a mistake" you repeated sobbing and breathig hard to find air to you lungs "Babe you need sleep, we can talk about this in the morning please baby your scaring me." Michael asked and you nodded laying down in his arms and falling alseep to him humming to you.
   

sorry these suck haha