Been Through (Camila/You)

Chapter 26

Y/N's POV:

I turned around and I saw Camila trying to slide her pants up

"Hey Hey Stop you don't need to go" I said trying to grab her hands

"Stop let me go" She sniffled. She was crying?

"why are you crying?" I asked grabbing her hand

"This was a bad idea" she mumbled trying to get out of my
Grasp but I grabbed her tightly

"Why?" I asked

She pushed me away and wiped her tears

"I'm bad for you" she mumbled

And I stayed quiet

"I do nothing but hurt you" she said sadly

"You've made mistakes yea but we're passed that now" I said trying to push the truth away

I out of all people knew how much she destroys me. But still I want and crave her around

"What did he mean by you taking drugs?" She asked

"It was nothing don't listen to him-"

"Answer me" she said sternly

I sighed and clenched my jaw looking away "I might've done some shit" I said lowly

"Like What?" She asked with sad eyes

"I popped a few pills, and other things" I said shamefully

"When?" She asked

"About a few weeks after it happened" I said and her eyes closed hurt

"Did you do it alone?" She asked me and I sighed

"Not the first time" I mumbled "but then on I got a hold of some by myself"

"Who did you go to?" She asked me lowly. I gulped not wanting to say regretting the night I turned that low

"Y/n" she said

"I went to one of my ex hookups" I said

She looked at me confused when I said that. I've never talked to her about all of my exes. I've only spoken about the one big relationship I had and that no one liked her but I've never told her about the few friends with benefits I frequented before I met her

"I knew she always had some so I went to her" I said lowly

"Did you do anything else?" She asked scared

"I hooked up with her a few times" I said shamefully and she clenched her jaw

"Were the drugs worth it?" She asked angry at me

"It was the only way I could sleep and stay alive at the same time" I said "I couldn't do anything I was a zombie but they woke me up" I said "plus it kinda numbs-"

"Do you still take them?" She asked me cutting me off having a hurt expression

"No they forced me to stop when they found out" I said

"If they wouldn't have stopped you would you still be taking them?" She asked me

"I don't know" i said scratching my head "why do you keep asking me all these questions?" I said frustrated

"Do you know how terrible this makes me feel?!" she mumbled "not only that but drugs wasn't the answer" she said cracking her voice before turning around and began to cry more