Why I Did It (Lauren/You)

Dear Lauren

I flipped the page hoping to find some more to read but I didn't. The rest of the pages were blanked. "What?"

The last page was titled 'Dear Lauren'.
It was like she was starting a new chapter but never got to it.

I remember that night like it was yesterday.

I remember bumping into her at prom. I remember how hurt she looked. I remember chasing after her. I did one why she was crying but I remember shouting her name trying to get her to stop.

Flashback

"Attention everyone! Can I please get everyone attention. We are about to present our prom king and queen!" I heard. I let out a breath. My nerves were getting the best of me.

After y/n cancelled on me I decided to surprise her at her school. I remember her telling me the name of her new school.

Lincoln High.

I wanted tonight to perfect. I just wanted to hug her and talk to her face to face for the first time. I didn't care that she was with her girlfriend I wanted her. I wanted to tell her how I feel. And apologize for what I did in this past year.

I walked up the steps and walked inside. I then turned around I forgot the roses. I ran back to my car and grabbed the roses out the passenger seat.

I then ran back to the stairs. This is going to be perfect. I just know it.

I walked up the stairs. The door flung open a girl with a black dress ran out tears were falling from her face. She ran past me.

I wonder what's wrong with her. I continued up the stairs. Soon someone else ran out the school. She bumps into me. "Oh excuse me-"

She pushes past me. She looks back at me my eyes widen. "Y/n?"

Is that really y/n?

"Wait y/n!" I yelled she picks up her pace running to her car. "Y/n stop it's me Lauren!" I followed behind her she takes off.

What the hell happened?

I got into my car and followed her. I dialed her number hoping that she would answer but she declined. "Come on y/n pick up, pick up" I called her again. She declined it.

I looked up from my phone and noticed her car wasn't in front of me anymore. "Fuck"

"where the fuck did she go?" I called her again. It went straight to voicemail.

"Hey y/n it's me Lauren. We need to talk please call back"

I went to our messages

Me: Where did you go?

Me: please answer my calls I'm starting to worry

I noticed that her location was on. She had to be home. I quickly put the address in my gps and made my way to her house.

After about 30 minuets of accidentally making wrong turns, and not turning I finally made it to her house. I walked in front of the door. I knocked on the door. No one answered.

I knocked again but still no one answered.

Y/n car was in the drive way so I knew she was here. Would it be wrong if I just walk in?

Shrugging I opened the door. "Y/n?!" I yelled no answer. I looked around house before jogging upstairs.

"Y/n?!" I yelled still no answer. "Y/n it's me Lauren I know you're here. Your car is here" I chuckled. I walked to the room. The door was cracked open and a light was shining from it. I open it. There I saw her laying on her bed. She was still in her prom dress.

"Y/n?" I felt a smile form on my face. I was actually in the same room as her. I walked over to the bed. "Y/n wake up" I tapped her shoulder. "It's me Lauren"

I ran my fingers through my hair. "Y/n?" I was a bit confused on why she wasn't waking up. Falling asleep with her on FaceTime I learned that a little cough can wake her up. She's a light sleeper she would have woken up by now.

I shook her, and pushes her on her back. Next to her was an empty bottle of pills and a notebook.

"Oh my god!" I covered my mouth. "No no no no no! Y/n wake up please wake up!" I shook her, tears were falling from my eyes. I quickly grabbed my phone and dialed 911. As I held y/n close to my chest.

"911 what's your emergency?"

"My best friend just committed suicide!"

"Ok ma'am calm down what yours address" I quickly gave them the address. And held on to y/n. I didn't let go.

And ever since that night I blame myself. I should've asked her how she was. I shouldn't have never ignored her for those weeks. I should've been there for her when she needed me the most.

I'm the worst person ever. I'm the worst friend ever.

And if she don't wake up from this coma. I'm never going to forgive myself.

I walked inside the room y/n was laying on the bed. Her chest was rising up and down, indicating me that she was breathing.

I felt a hand on my shoulder I look back to see Dinah. "Hey"

"You know you have to leave today" I sighed feeling my chest tightened. "I can't leave her"

"I know but...Lauren we canceled to many shows. We can't do it anymore. We can't let our fans down" I wiped the tears off my cheek. "I think y/n would want you to go and do what you love"

"You say that like she's dead!"

She sighs "I'm sorry but we have to go" I glance over at y/n and walked over to her. "Can you give us a minute" Dinah nods walking away. I sat down on the chair next to her bed.

Grabbed her hand and rubbed her knuckles with my thumb. "Y/n I'm about to leave. But I want you to know that I'll be back. I don't care how much I have to spend. You will still be here until you're ready to wake up. I promise that you will see another day. You will make it y/n I know you will" I wiped my tears away. "I'm not letting you leave me. Not now, not ever" I kissed her knuckles. "I love you so much. Just stay put"

I say before standing up. "I'll be back I promise"

I let out a sigh before standing up and walking to the door.

"And I'll be waiting here when you get back" I slowly turned around to see y/n. "Well I think"

"Oh my god".......

The end.

I've been thinking about ending the book more creative buttttt I got tired so here you go.

This book would've been better if I didn't rush. But I hope you like it. And thank you for continuing to read my book.

~Lociana❤️

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