Why I Did It (Lauren/You)

Reason Number Five: My Parents Getting A Divorce

Trigger warning

Being bullied was something that I could handle even though it brought a lot of tears out my eyes. But finding out that my parents were getting a divorce weeks after made me fucking lose it.

Arguing wasn't new In this family. They always argued but not as much. That week they argued so much none stop. I knew something was wrong but I didn't think that my dad would go so far of threatening their relationship.

They've been married for 5 years. I thought they were happy.

That night I was in my room talking to you on the phone when I heard shouting.

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"So superstar how life been?" I say rolling on my back. "Quite busy I can say. I've performing everyday and going to interviews. I really need so rest" Lauren chuckles on the other end. I hummed "that makes since. You haven't been answering none of my texts or calls. I really thought that I had did something wrong" I frowned.

Past weeks in school been very tough. I do feel like everything that I do is wrong. I can't talk to a guy or girl without being called a whore. It feels like every time I breath it offends someone. Strange right. The whole school wants me dead.

"No no of course not. Every time that I do get the chance to get on my phone it'll be really late, or too early in the morning. I don't want to bother your sleep"

"Eh I guess it's ok" I sighed.

I heard shouting from downstairs. I stood up and walked to my door. "Hold on Lauren"

"Ok" I placed my phone down on my bed and walked down the hall. I leaned against the wall.

"You were with him! I saw you with my own two eyes are you really going to lie to my face" my dad yelled. "Andrew I promise you that we didn't do anything but hang out! Why don't you trust me?!"

"Because you do shit to make me not trust you....all week I told you not to hang out with him. And yet you go behind my back hang with him."

Dad number two must be cheating again. I rolled my eyes "look Andrew I will fix th-"

"I don't want to hear none of it. If you don't break things off with him by next week! I'm leaving you and I'm taking Y/n with me!" There was a moment of silence.

"I work with him what do you expect me to do! QUIT?"

"DO SOMETHING!-" Andrew stops talking. "Matter of fact call him right now"

"No!"

"Then we're getting a divorce" I bite my lip and walked back into my room!" I closed the door. Tears started falling down my eyes.

Why did this have to happen?.

Why is my life so fucked up?.

I grabbed my phone "Lauren I'll call you back ok?"

"What? Are you ok-" I ended the call and fell on my bed. I sobbed in my pillow. Today was far the worse day of my life.

My parents are breaking up. And I'm going to have to move away. How is this going to work?.

I cut off my light and got under the covers. I heard someone knock on my door. I turned my back towards it.

"Y/n?" I heard my dad. I didn't answer I wanted him to think that I was sleep. I heard him sigh and the door shut.

God I want to die.

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It's been a week since everything happened. Me and my father was staying at a hotel. I didn't know when we were leaving and he didn't either but it's whatever. I shouldn't be complaining, there's families out there who would love to sleep in a hotel.

I was now sitting down at my desk by myself as the teacher was lecturing the class about god knows what. I felt something hit my head, I knew someone threw a ball of paper at me. It's been going on for a while.

A ball of paper gets thrown at me again, it landed right beside on my desk. I grabbed it and opened it.

'Your fagots got a divorce bc you ruin their life. Go kill yourselves' 

I bald the paper up. I looked back to see them jocks snickering. I grabbed my things and stood up. "Y/n where are you going?" I walked to the door and walked out, tears were already spilling out my eyes.

As I stepped outside the school my heart stopped.

Remember reason number 3: being a fool?

Well now I feel like a even bigger fool. Seeing someone that I have feelings for kissing someone else really hurts especially when we were so close in a relationship.

A sob left my mouth as I ran to my car.

Why am I so stupid?.

I placed my head on the steering wheel. Letting everything out. Crying, screaming. That's all I can do.

I started my car. Both me and Maia made eye contact. Her eyes widen as I pulled out and the parking lot and drove to the hotel.

I ran inside of the hotel. And went to my room. I went into the bathroom and locked the door.

Last week in school someone put a present in my locker. It was razor with a note attached to it.

'Here's an early Christmas present. Go kill yourself'

I grabbed the little box out my book bag and grabbed the razor. More tears fell to my eyes as I placed it to my wrist.

As I sat on the toilet. I stared down at my wrist. My hand started to shake,

I want to do this. I want to be done with this world but I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to do it.

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I wiped the tears off my face. and faced Y/n. I walked to her and grabbed her arm. She didn't have any cuts on her arm. Which I am so thankful for.

I leaned down and kissed her knuckles.....