Moist||Book One (Completed)

Seven

I feel as if God is staring a hole into me from the kingdom of heaven and I am no longer pure enough to enter into his kingdom . I feel guilty and like everyone knows that I got my buns clapped and I don't even think Zion pulled out . Ugh I was pregnant and a sinner. I wasn't even has Girlfriend and - Faith shut up sis you're doing entirely too much and yes we all - I'm going to hell.

I tried so hard to forget about the events that took place at the movies in the back of the car but I couldn't. The devil wouldn't let me, he kept playing it like the slow motion feature on the I phone app and it only made me feel worse.

Jaida taps me .

"You ok", she mouths. 

I nod.

I was lying and I wasn't ok.

The day moved by in slow motion and Zion texted me non-stop and I attempted to ignore him . I usually sat near him in class but today I sat completely different spot. He stopped me in the hallway.

"Faith why have you been ignoring me today?", Zion asks concerned .

I look down at my shoes.

"Faith I'm serious", Zion says pressuring me to speak.

"I don't want to see you or talk to you anymore", I force out.

"What?", Zion asked confused .

"I think it's best if we never speak again Zion, it's for the best", I say walking away.

Honestly I felt like crap as I walked away from the love of my life. I didn't even know why I left him and I didn't even think it was for the best . I was already going to burn in hell and I didn't think I'd ever find another guy like him .

The next class was torture I sat completely next to him. He kept staring holes into my face and it made me feel guilty . I try my hardest to ignore him but it's hard as I end up looking at him and his eyes were filled with hurt, betrayal and love . I actually hurt him and it was killing me .

"Faith you sure you wanna do this?", Zion whispers.

I ignore him and the bell rings signaling the end of the day . I collect my things and head to my car to wait for Jaida, a couple minutes later she walks out angry .

"How could you Faith?", She yells me .

I was so shocked that I couldn't even put my words together. 

"Zion loves you and you just going to hurt him like that", Jaida says crossing her arms.

I look down at my feet .

"Why?", She asks .

I couldn't even answer her because I didn't even know why. I didn't know what was running through my mind. I was filled with guilt and hurt.

I shrug.

"You were being selfish and you weren't thinking about nobody's feelings but your own. Now Zion is hurt", Jaida says getting in the car slamming the door .

I stand there completely shocked and miserable. As I get in the car my focus turns to Zion looking at me completely miserable, my heart drops into my stomach. I look away getting into my car to go home.

I arrive home and get out to handle some business before getting back into my car to head to work. Work with slow and I couldn't keep my mind off of Zion the whole night.

"Faith you ok?", My manager asks.

I nod.

The manager actually let's up and let me finish my shift. Finally 8 had hit and I clocked out and headed to my car to head home for the weekend. I was so ready to relax after a long week of sin and confusion. I barely hung with my best friend anymore because she was out of town visiting her dad and her sister Genesis had moved to Japan for the school year with her auntie. 

Elom and Jaida had been into a alot of arguments lately and he barely called anymore. He always texted me and stuff but he said he wouldn't call her because she wanted her space. I fill it was something deeper then that but I didn't want to pry so I let it be.

I arrive home and all of a sudden it starts storming. I take a quick shower and and throw on my pajamas and relax in bed when zion climbs on to my balcony and walks into my room yet soak and wet .

"What are you doing here?", I ask getting out of bed. 

"I can't leave you alone , I don't want too", he says attacking me.

I should scream but I dont, I wrap my arms around him because I miss him . He moves to my neck sending chills up my spine.  He makes me weak and I love him . I don't even know what I'd do without him . His wet clothes stick to my clothes and next thing I know we're naked and making love. 

I was crazy considering I was making love iny parents house right under their room and I was moaning loudly but not one time did they come downstairs. I was sinning against God and I was on my way to hell but the pleasure Zion blessed me with was so worth it . I wanted him to stop but I didn't .

We finally finished and we fall asleep next to each other. The next morning I wake up on his chest and I'm dressed in his shirt. I cuddle closer to him and he rubs my hair and kisses my forehead.

"I thought you were leaving me alone?", Zion asks smirking.

"I was but you wouldn't let me", I reply.

"You right because I love you and you're my girl", Zion admits. 

"Awwwh someone's soft", I say blushing .

"Of course", he admits.

I mentally roll my eyes because he made me feel some type  of way and he made me weak in the knees . I was in love with Caleb Zion Kuwonu.