Life's Misadventures |Cashby & Kellic|

Chapter 7

Kellin's POV

I snuck quietly into Austin's room and slid my wallet out of his jeans that were laying on the floor and took a fifty out before I tucked it back in. Austin was still guarding my wallet from me because even though it had literally been a week, he still didn't trust me.

And considering what I was about to do, he had good reason. I snuck out of his room and headed out of the house quickly. It was three in the morning so I doubted that Austin would notice I was even going to be gone. I headed down the street and texted my dealer, letting him know I was on my way.

I had tried so hard to stay clean and not even think about the stuff but I couldn't. I couldn't hold out any longer than I have. All I got out of quitting was the shakes, gross sweating, nausea and I was either exhausted or couldn't sleep to save my life. I was miserable and i didn't see the point in even trying to stay clean when heroin made me feel so much better than this. I knew I was going to disappoint Austin, but I needed this. I couldn't go any longer without it. Austin would understand if he found out.

I shoved my hands into my pockets and kept walking down the street, Austin didn't even have to know about this. He wouldn't find out, I wouldn't let him. There was absolutely no way he would find out about this anyway. I'd do all this before he woke up.

"It's three am, what are you doing out here?" Someone asked and I jumped.

"What?" I asked, glancing at Alan.

"Why are you out so late? Shouldn't you be sleeping?"

"Shouldn't you be sleeping?" I countered. "You're like twelve, isn't it past your bedtime?"

He laughed, "I had to close the bar tonight."

"Oh," I said and kept walking.

"You never answered my question, what are you doing?"

"Just out for a walk."

"Anywhere in particular?"

"Not really," I said. "Just walking and thinking."

"Thinking about anything specific?"

"Eh," I said as he started walking with me. "Just some life drama."

"Like what?"

"Austin told me what you said about my voice, just so you know," I told him, glaring. "But, I've been thinking about my band and maybe," I sighed. I hadn't said this out loud, much less even really thought about it, just because I was terrified to hear what everyone else would think. "Maybe my band would be better without me."

"Why do you think that?"

"What has Austin told you about me?" I asked him.

"Not too much, he never really talks about you if I'm being honest."

I hummed. "Probably for the best. I uh, I guess you could say fucked up?" I said, crinkling my nose. "I've not been the best band member or the best brother." I pushed my sleeves up, so he could see the stupid track marks.

He nodded, "Were you going to get more stuff? Is that why you're up so late?"

I winced. "No, just walking."

"You don't have to lie. I'm not stupid."

I rolled my eyes. "Just don't say a thing to Austin."

"My lips are sealed, but now you're not going to get any because I'm here and I won't let you."

"Don't be annoying," I said, rolling my eyes. "It's not like I'm going to do something stupid."

"Well you obviously were since you were going to by more."