Idols|| Felix Lee✔

Chapter 8: Insecurities?

It was Monday. The previous week had been a long one. Working out to lose the required weight Soojin told them to. Exhausted from continuous practices on a hourly basis.

Overthinking to create lyrics their boss would seem fit. The fear of having their debut date pushed back. They all wanted this for so long, that it would break their heart to know that all of their hard work wasn't going to carry them anywhere.

Reina sat in the empty space of just a mirror on walls and a sound system. Sleepless, tired, confused, determined. Her third night in a row. Just sitting there, too stubborn to actually leave and eat. Whenever the others would buy a meal or call it a day, she would just stay there and dance until her bones would ache and her muscles felt like tearing apart.

She doesn't get home until 3:30am. When she does, she takes a shower, changes her clothes, makes some coffee and head back out to the practice room. Sometimes she would even pack another set of clothes in case she had something else to do.

After that day when the others caught her in such a scene with Felix, she isolated herself from a lot of people. Barely eating, barely sleeping. Just working and working to make herself 'better'. After talking to Adrian a few times, he thought that JYP was working her to her limits, but she told him that she was only doing that to herself.

She felt as if she wasn't meeting the standards of what it meant to be an idol, much less a trainee. So she worked her hardest and tried her best to 'fit in that category'. A lot of people would often try to convince her to take things slow and rest, but she ignored them and continued to push herself past the limit.

A lot of people that observe her noticed that she was acting different, and they didn't know what to do about it. Her gorgeous emerald eyes didn't beam the same way anymore. They had multiple bags beneath them. Her plump lips that were so pink and luscious, turned chapped and dry. Her weight dropped drastically that you could practically see her rib cages.

I know this sounds a bit drastic for a week long period, but the fact that she's doing that is a bit realistic. Today was the day of their album recording. Monday. SIGH!

Around 8:05am, the others came in as the young female was panting for breath. She had just finished dancing the daily warm up dance Soojin gives them before she sets them to work. For the past few days, she never felt tired after doing it once, but today was sort of an exception.

Soojin came as they were stretching and greeted everyone with a weak smile.

"Okay guys. We're not going to have practice today. JYP wanted everyone to rest and relax before the recording. Dismissed." Was all she said before turning around. As she was turning though, she noticed how weak and skinny Reina looked to her compared to yesterday.

Reina was wearing a maroon nike sports bra, with a black cardigan and black shorts, accompanied with red and black nikes. Since she was wearing a sports bra, she could've seen how her ribs preferably stuck out from her entire body figure. I mean she still had DAT ASS, but her thighs got a bit small, creating a thigh gap in which she never had. Her arms also got a bit skinnier and the bags under her emerald eyes multiplied since last time.

"Oh and Reina, I need to see you." She said before finally turning around and walking away. The latter let her hair down and passed her fingers through it before sighing and walking towards her choreographer.

"Yes Soojin unnie?"

"You need to eat. You lost wayyyyyy more than 1.5kg throughout the week long period and you're obviously tired."

"I'm perfectly fine Soojin unnie."

"It doesn't look that way. And why is there so much bags under your eyes? Why aren't you sleeping? You are amazing just the way you are Reina, you DO NOT to work yourself over the limits set for you. You got me sweetheart?"