Hope For The One

Part 22- Gone

Joe's POV

Rachel had been discharged yesterday. She told the nurses that if they didn't discharge her then she'd discharge herself. So, they let her go but told me to make sure she took it easy. Rachel had took her pills to fully discontinue the pregnancy after the damage had been done. She was heartbroken. It took the doctors and I over two hours to make her take the pills. She thought that if she didn't take the pills then they'd be a chance that the baby may have still been alive, it was awful to watch. 

I came back through the living room after my shower to see Rachel sitting in the exact same position to which she was left in; sitting cross-legged on the sofa, staring straight forward to the wall. It broke me to see her like this. Rachel was known for being a bubbly person with a happy personality, but this had sent her into a deep depression. 

"Babe, i'll make you something to eat!" I said.

"Not hungry!" Rachel said bluntly, not allowing her eye contact to break from the wall. 

"Rachel, you haven't ate since, you know" I said. How was I supposed to word it? I couldn't exactly say miscarriage, it was a far too sensitive subject this soon. 

"Just say it!" Rachel spat.

"What?!" I asked, confused. 

"Just say I had a miscarriage!" she spat.

"Rachel I-" was all I could say before she interrupted me. She jumped to her feet.

"Just say it!" she screamed and sobbed. "Or are you ashamed?!"

"Rachel of course i'm not!" I said. "You've got to eat something!"

"There's more important things than me eating!" Rachel sobbed. 

"Rachel, I know this is hard but-" I began. 

"Oh do you?!" she sobbed. "Were you the one carrying a child only for it to be ripped away from you?!"

"Rachel I may not have been the one who was carrying the child but I've still lost a child too!" I said as calmly as I can, although my emotions were starting to get the better of me. 

"The nurses said i'd get cramping in my stomach!" Rachel sobbed. "But the only pain I feel is the fact I lost my child!"

This sent me over the edge!

"Our child!" I yelled. "It was our baby! I'm grieving too! Have you ever thought about how I feel? I was going to be a dad and that got taken away from me as well as you! How is everyone going to deal with this?!"

"Everyone!" she sobbed. "We've just lost a child and you're worrying about how everyone else is going to feel who don't even know! What about me?!"

"I'm allowed to consider other people a part from you!" I screamed. "I didn't sign up to marry a self-centered brat!"

Ok, maybe I shouldn't have said that. Maybe I went too far. But what does she expect? I'm angry and grieving too!

"Then I'll save you the bother!" Rachel yelled and sobbed. She took her ring off and slammed it on the coffee table. "We're over!"

And with that, she left. 

Rachel's POV

I was walking. Just walking until I found myself in front of Erin and Jack's flat. My sobs grew greater. I continuously banged on the door until it was answered by Erin. As Erin opened the door I fell to my knees.

"Hi Rac- What's wrong!" she asked looking worried as she went onto her knees next to me and hugged me. 

"My b-baby!" I sobbed, hysterically. "M-My baby's gone!"

End of part 22

A/N:

Hi guys! I know this is a really emotional chapter! I love you all and thanks for all the love and support! Well, until next time!

Rachel x