sorry | lee minho

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i woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. i did the usual routine and headed down for some breakfast. 

it was the usual scene, silent and empty. dad had to resume his work and mom was, well, still mourning the death of her eldest child. 

i took out a cereal bar and poured myself a glass of orange juice. i wondered what minho was doing. after seeing those sad eyes of his last night, i was even more intrigued. i wanted to be closer to him but there was something about him that made me afraid of him. 

he was mean and cold but there was something about him that made him seem so vulnerable. 

i went up to mom's room to bid her goodbye for the day. she was staring emptily outside the window. when she heard the door creak open, she turned to face me and tears started flowing. 

"moonbyul.. where is your brother? he has not been home for so long. im so worried for him. did something happen to him? where is he? moonbyul please ask him to come home. i want to see my moonbin.." i stared at her speechless. i bit my lip to refrain myself from crying.

seeing mom in this state pained me so much. i looked up at the picture of moonbin and i and tears started falling down my cheeks. 

"moonbin i hate you so much. because of you mom and dad are hurting. how could you just leave like that?" with that i wiped the tears that fell and headed out the door. 

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i was at my locker getting my english literature books. to my right were minho's friends but i didnt see minho with them. i didnt see minho all day today and we had two lessons left for the day, english literature and maths. 

i didnt want to sit alone during those lessons. especially since i struggled badly in maths and i needed minho's help. 

i walked over to minho's friends and asked them where he was. 

"hes absent from school today. he didnt text us why though" one of the guys replied me. presumably hyunjin since he was extremely good looking. heck all of them are. 

"why'd you ask?" the youngest, jeongin asked. "oh im just wondering since i didnt see him at all today." i smiled and bid the goodbye to walk to my next class.

i sat at the usual spot and indeed, it felt weird not seeing minho staring out into the distance while i tried to talk to him.

the lesson carried on with the teacher blabbering on about the different themes in the book. i took minho's work and kept it under his table for him.

soon, it was time for the next lesson and the lesson i dreaded the most, maths. i was terrible at maths and now that minho wasnt here to help me i felt completely lost. everything was coming in one ear and going out the other.

"miss moonbyul, do you mind passing these worksheets to minho when he gets back? this is a new topic we are starting on and i dont want him missing out. well, thats it for today, class dismissed." i sighed as i took the worksheets from the teacher.

i placed it along with his english literature notes until i realised that i could just drop by his house since he was my neighbour. and it was another excuse for me to see him. well, not like i wanted to 

"hey moonbyul. the boys and i wanna get ice cream. you wanna join?" sejeong beamed brighly at me. 

"its okay. i have to get back like asap" sejeong pouted  at my response and shook her head at the boys behind. 

"you never spend time with us" she grabbed my arm and gave me her sad look. 

"im sorry sejeong. i just really need to go back. what about next week? we can hang out then! plus, next week marks the start of our the term break. we have a full week to hang out with each other!" i tried to cheer her up and she agreed. 

we waved goodbye to each other and i made my way to minho's house.

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i walked slowly past my house to minho's house. i close the gate behind me and walked to his doorstep. i rang the doorbell and there was no answer. 

"maybe he isnt home" i rang the doorbell again but there was no answer. 

the lights in his house were switched on though but no one was answering the door. then, from the corner of my eye, something glimmered. i walked over to object to find a key under a potted plant.

"are you serious. what if a burglar were to find this?" i rolled my eyes as i contemplated whether to enter his house. 

"technically its not breaking in right? i have a damn key" i assured myself as i turned the door knob. 

i walked into his house and placed my bag on the door. 

"minho? hey umm i have some worksheets for you since you missed out on quite some stuff today" i said as i walked to his living room. 

however, there was no one at home. no signs of minho anywhere. 

"maybe hes in his room" i went around his house trying to look for his room. i then stumbled across the only door that was closed.

i opened it up and my eyes widened to see minho, on the floor breaking out in sweat.