sorry | lee minho

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i laughed a bit at minho's expression. "yeah i have a brother" i averted his gaze awkwardly. "ahh is it weird if i asked what happened? the curiosity has already killed the cat" he smiled sheepishly and i chuckled. 

it was the first time someone asked me about my brother. just then students started shuffling loudly into the classroom. "i'll tell you in detention" i said as i held up the yellow slip of paper. minho sighed and placed his head down on the table. "shit i forgot about that" he mumbled then groaned. 

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class ended and students rushed loudly through the hallways out the school premises. as for minho and i, we were stuck in the detention room. 

"no eating, drinking, talking, texting, you get the rules" the teacher in charge lazily said as he went out the classroom.

"psst, isnt he supposed to stay in here for the whole hour?" minho whispered from beside me and i laughed softly. he moved his chair closer to me and laid his head on the table so he was facing me.

"what the hell are you doing? we're gonna get in trouble genius" i scolded him urging him to go back to his seat. "you said you would you tell me about your bro" he cheekily said and i rolled my eyes.

"he passed away two years ago" 

"from?"

"suicide" i looked down at my fingers that were fiddling with my skirt. "im so sorry to hear that" minho awkwardly tried to comfort me and i laughed it off. 

"its been two years. i'm fine now but my mom, she suffered the most among us."

"how so?"

"i guess the shock was so sudden and large to her that it affected her mentally. she couldn't recognise me at times, she still waits for my brother to come home. i dunno she's not the same anymore. she locks herself up in her room practically the whole day" i sadly spoke 

"what about your dad?" minho continued to ask. "oh he's fine i guess. i mean he has been stressing himself out with work. the news came to him as a shock at first too but now he just occupies his mind with work. hes rarely at home which is why i'm sort of alone at home most of the time" i smiled and looked up at minho. 

his expressions were soft and his eyes were full of affection. "okay hold up, i still don't get how the pills are related to any of this" minho furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and i chuckled.

"my parents aren't the only ones who were affected dumbass. ever since my brother passed away and my mom's withdrawal, i have like i dunno panic attacks every now and then. it was way worse back then, i had trouble breathing at times and had to go to the hospital" i shuddered at the thought. 

"the pills just help me cope with stress and pain. i take them before bed sometimes when i have trouble sleeping" i weakly smiled. i hated using the pills. they made me feel helpless and worthless because i had to depend on something. but then again, they helped me get by and move on in a way.

minho suddenly got up and held up his fists. "if thats the case, i shall then make it my duty to make sure you don't need those pills anymore." he widely smiled and reassuring me with his words. 

"Mr Lee Minho, what are you doing?" the teacher in charge entered the classroom to see minho standing up with his fists in the air. 

"u-uh sorry my bad" minho sheepishly went back to his seat and winked cheekily at me. i rolled my eyes and laughed at his actions. it was unnecessarily cute and without knowing, my heart felt so at ease.

an hour passed by quicker than expected and we were released from the detention room. minho walked out earlier than me since he didn't have anything of his on the table. he was practically sleeping through detention. 

i thought i'd get some work done and did my homework throughout the rest of detention.  i stood up from my seat and looked for minho who was already outside of class, waiting for me. i smiled and walked out of class. 

"where you wanna go to for lunch?" minho asked and i looked up at him. since he was literally a head taller than me i had to look up at him which was pretty annoying. 

"im not that hungry. what about we go to the grocery store and i cook up something at your house" i grinned thinking of pasta. i make one of the best pastas if i do say so myself. 

minho just shrugged his shoulders and we left the school to go to the grocery store. along the way, there were girls from our school that were whispering while looking at us. they were obviously gossiping since minho was pretty popular at school. i walked awkwardly ahead of minho trying to avoid the girls' stares.

"hey slow down what you walking so fast for?" minho caught up to me and grabbed my arm. i looked down at the pavement, "nothing". i didn't like people staring at me. it made me feel more insecure than i already am. 

minho raised an eyebrow and turned behind to see the same girls that were whispering about us. he turned back and looked at me. he then grabbed my hand and placed it in his. "what're you doing?" i frowned trying to let go of his grip. 

"showing everyone that you're mine" he cheekily grinned and continued walking, as if nothing happened. i followed behind him while trying to hide my unfortunately blushed cheeks. i couldn't help but squeal internally at what he just said. 

"i hate you so fucking much" i mumbled under my breath. "language" he chuckled and i rolled my eyes. minho was being extremely cute, and oh my god he knew it. 

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we arrived at the grocery store and minho took a basket. i went over to grab the dried pasta and some vegetables, leaving minho alone to browse the snack aisle.  

i grabbed the necessary ingredient for my one of a kind pasta and tried looking for minho around the store. he was no longer in the snack aisle which made me confused. 

"ahh where is this boy?" frustrated, i turned the corner and saw minho but he wasn't alone. he was standing infront of a girl around our age. her back was facing me so i couldn't see how she looked like. i quickly hid myself behind one of the shelves and peeked slightly to see the both of them. 

"her outfit is super cute not gonna lie" i told myself who was impressed by her fashion sense. just as i was complimenting her, her arms wrapped around minho's abdomen area. my eyes widened at the sight and a tinge of jealousy wrapped around my heart. 

i moved to a closer shelf and hid behind it, hoping to hear what she was saying.

"minho yah, im sorry okay please forgive me" the girl pleaded with him in a disgustingly sweet voice. "ew who the hell is she to put her hands around him" i frowned. "hold up, what am i saying?" i hit my lips soft a few times and continued to watch them. minho's expressions were cold and dark. 

the same face he always had back then. the one that made me shudder and feel intimidated. his soft and cheeky eyes were replaced by icy ones and he stood the emotionlessly looking down on the girl. 

he pushed her away and frowned. "that ended long ago, sooyeon. please stop disturbing me" minho coldly spat and the girl folded her arms. "why are you acting like this? don't you still love me? or do you already have someone in mind that replaced me?" she whined back at him which made me roll my eyes. 

"is this sooyeon girl his ex? hold up he had a girlfriend and he didn't tell me about her?" i felt a wee bit offended at the fact that minho had a girlfriend.

"minho answer me! did you find someone to replace me?" the girl grabbed his arm and shook it annoyingly. just then, the contents of the shelf that i was hiding behind fell onto the floor and it made a loud noise. 

"oh shit" i cursed at myself and both minho and the girl turned to look at me. "don't bother me i had a long night and i can't see where i'm going" i made up a super lame excuse and hurriedly picked up the items that fell. 

"yes. i do have someone that replaced you sooyeon." i heard minho speak and looked up to see him walking towards me. he placed his arm on my shoulders and gave me a smirk. 

"meet moonbyul, my girlfriend" i froze at his words and smiled awkwardly at the girl. my heart was racing and i could see the shocked expression of the girl. minho nudged my shoulders. 

"erh hi?" were the only words that managed to come out of my mouth as i stood beside minho, praying that i would die soon.