sorry | lee minho

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"im in love with you" he suddenly blurted out. the moment felt like time had stopped. i couldn't bring myself to say anything. i didn't know what to say. i was frozen at the spot. unknowing of how to react. 

"you know, its totally fine if you don't feel the same way. we can still be friends like how we are now" minho chuckled when he saw my expression.

its not that i don't have feelings for you. 

"let's watch a movie. i heard the new spiderman movie is amazing" he said as he walked to switch on the tv.

i felt bad, horrible in fact. i didn't know how to react. i didn't know what to say. i wanted to tell him how i felt about him too. but i couldn't bring myself to do it. i was afraid. somehow, i was terrified.

"look minho its not what you think okay. im really sor-" 

"stop. its fine. it really is. you know what, i think im just going to eat the medicine and go to sleep. forget about the movie. you should join the rest since its the last few nights here in Quebec. goodnight moonbyul," minho stopped me from apologising. 

there he goes again. rejecting apologies.

"oh okay . goodnight minho. see you tomorrow then. rest well" i clumsily opened the door and made my way back to my own room.

i mentally smacked myself. what the hell was that. i couldn't tell him how i felt and was a total wreck. i felt horrible.