sorry | lee minho

lilac

i gathered my breathing after awhile. "hey are you okay now?" minho asked with a softness in his voice. i looked up at him and smiled. i looked past him to see the lady asleep. 

"i just got super anxious and i didn't bring my medication so you know how that goes. im sor-" minho cut me off and shook his head.

"its alright. shit happens" he said. 

"also can i just please explain myself for that night. its not like i meant to keep quiet and not give a reply." i waited for him to stop me from talking but instead, he kept listening.

here goes.

"im just scared to be attached to anyone. its just the fear of losing them when i get too close you know. i've lost so many people that i was once close to and i don't want to lose you too" i fiddled with my fingers. 

"furthermore, this anxiety thing is too much of a trouble for anyone and i don't want to be a weight on anyone's shoulders" i continued on. 

minho sighed. i looked up to face him. 

the warmth in his face was accompanied by a child-like grin. "why on earth would i leave you?" 

i shrugged my shoulders and my thoughts went to moonbin and mom. "people just do" i softly replied. 

minho grabbed my shoulders in a way that i would sit up and look at him. "believe me if i choose to love someone, im never changing my mind. ever" he cheekily grinned and i smiled back.

"sorry i was kind of cold though" he blurted out and a flush of pink was evident on is cheeks.

"oh my god is that an apology i hear?" i joked and he sheepishly smiled. 

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hello! im probably going to end this story soon because im not a huge huge fan of super long-winded stories haha:) but don't worry because i have so many other story ideas with other idols because im a multistan hehe! thank you soso much for reading:))