OPERATION: Make Alexandra Santiago Fall (TLS #1)

Chapter 27 - Doubts And Fears

CHAPTER 27 : Doubts And Fears

A L E X A N D R A

A month passed since everything about me and David went well, at sa isang buwang iyon mas lalo lang kaming nagkakalapit–mas lalo lang lumalalim ang pag-ibig namin para sa isa't isa.

As each day passes, everything seems to be in the right holes. David and my parents got even more closer. He became more than welcome in our house. Kahit nga araw-arawin niya ang pagpunta hindi siya sinisinta nila Mama at Papa, actually mas nagugustohan nila pag sa bahay lang kami nagsasama ni David para kasi daw at least dito, nababantayan nila kami. I mean, hello? Mama, Papa, I'm a strong and responsible girl. Hindi ko hahayaang may mangyari sa amin ni David, 'no! Tsaka, David respects me. I trust him. Our love is more greater than the lust he feels.

But ang nakaka-gulat talaga is nung umalis sila mama back to States for their business. Sinabihan pa naman nila si David na bantayan ako dahil baka magiging pasaway daw ako. Ako? Pasaway? Unbelievable! Tsk!

They even insisted David to stay in out house–na hindi tinanggap ni David. Aba! Takot niya na sa akin, 'no! He knows na labag sa kalooban ko 'yun. Independent na ako since then kaya I don't need him to watch over me 24/7. Don't get me wrong, I want him by my side always pero masyado pang maaga para mag live in kami. Jeez!

Alexandra, hindi naman live in tawag doon dahil kasama niyo naman si Alexander.

I rolled my eyes in my thoughts. Okay, I know I'm being OA but basta! Ayoko pang makasama siya sa iisang bahay baka hindi ako maka-tulog ng maayos sa kakaisip na makakasama ko agad siya pagka-gising ko ng umaga. Not now, not yet.

After Mama and Papa left, mas lalong tumatagal ang araw-araw na pag punta nina David at Lucas sa bahay. Minsan nga pass 10pm na sila nakaka-uwi tapos minsan magpapa-awa effect itong si Monticello na dito nalang daw matulog. But those conversations always end up with me punching his face because of irritation. Pilitin ba naman ako.

Others would thought that David and I are all sweet and clingy to each other whenever we are together but nah, not really. There were couple of times na nagbabangayan at nag-aaway pa rin kami, I mean it can't be avoided. Hindi kami sina David at Alexandra kung walang asaran at inisan na mangyayari, afterall we started like that. From enemies to friends and soon to be a couple. Kung tinatanong niyo naman kung kailan ko siya balak sagutin, I still don't know. But one thing's for sure, it's going to be before this year ends.

December 14, 2017

Napa-tingin ako sa salamin pagkatapos mag ayos ng sarili. I smiled looking at my crown braided hair with some loose strands making it more natural. Buti nalang mabilis humaba ang buhok kong hanggang balikat lang noon. It's now few inches pass my chest kaya mas naging madali at detailed ang pag braid ko dito.

It's been years since the last time I cared for my self–you know, physically. Simula kasi nung dark ages ko (the cold and emotionless Alexandra days), hindi ko na pinapakialaman ang itsura ko. I would just comb my hair for 5 seconds after taking a shower, never minding that it's still a mess. Actually, I didn't care about anything before (anything but my family and my heart, of course). All I wanted was to live my life quietly, never letting people come in to my life, never letting myself get attached to other people other than my family because all I had in my thoughts back then was Once you get attached to other people, you will care for them. Once you care for them, you will love them. And once you'll start loving them, you're already giving them the satisfaction to hurt and break you..