better off alone - randy fanfiction

CHAPTER 15

kinda Jacklyn(?) filler chapter - not an amazing one but I'm running low on ideas :) enjoy

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Jack's POV

I'm moving all the bedding off the floor from last night and cleaning and stuff. 

the whole house is awake now and Cody's leaving in about 3 hours to head back to uni. she'll probably be back round next weekend anyway but it always feels strange when she goes. 

I'm feeling kinda weird after last night, like... ugh, I feel like no one tells me anything. 

firstly, I found out that andy is gay which I was surprised about but no one else was apparently; maybe I'm just not very observant. also I found out that rye and andy used to be like literal randy, like wtf. 

brook told me a load more stuff too when everyone went to sleep -  like how he saw andy and rye making out like yesterday at the studio and that Cody doesn't know. so I guess they are still literal randy then and rye is fooling around with his best mate behind his girlfriends back. 

fuck, and he also said Mikey likes De which I was not expecting at all. so my friend is crushing on his mate's girlfriend whose boyfriend is fucking for another guy who happens to be their friend also. this is way too complicated like I didn't realise everyone had so many secrets and I'm kinda pissed off about it because everyone knew most of this and I didn't.

ugh.

brook needs to get drunk more often and confess everything he knows so I get to be in the loop. or at least a little bit in the loop; I mean it would be nice to know what's happening in your friend's lives, which clearly I don't know that much of.    

also, when everyone was sleeping brook... well... brook kissed me, like proper. and... I didn't stop him and now, ugh, now I feel weird. weird is exactly how I'm feeling and I don't like it.

I don't even know if brook will remember. he's a complete lightweight and he got very drunk. he's in bed right now complaining about a headache. 

I kinda like kissing brook, we're never weird about it because I love him a lot, as a friend, but like it happens a lot that it's just normal to me but recently I don't know how I'm feeling about it.

obviously, brook is a touchy kissy person and I'm cool with that but like we make out more than normal friends do and cuddle, like a lot.

I'm straight. well... I know I like girls. but then I was thinking, I've never really been with a guy properly enough to rule any future with a boy from the equation. I have to admit I'm curious, ugh so now I'm feeling weird about brook as well as all my friend's weird secrets. 

he's told me stories about when he's done stuff with his friends back home, boys and girls. so like maybe he's into me. I don't know how I'd feel about that, I mean brook's a chill person. maybe I should ask. wait. no, that's a stupid idea.

I'm definitely overthinking this. 

I continue to clean.

why the fuck am I the only one cleaning. I decided to find some help because this isn't fair.

I walk to leave the Mindy room, with the laundry, and stop before I open the door because I hear someone talking, it's Mikey and rye.  

"yeah, Brook said he walked out on yous making out. mate, that's bang out of order, did you even think about the fact you have a girlfriend." Mikey is muming rye.

"I know mike and obviously I'm not proud, but it happened and well, it felt kinda right. but.. ummm.. she isn't my girlfriend anymore like we broke up this morning. not directly because of that studio thing though, It's been on my mind a while and I think hers too."

"shit me rye, really!! you okay?" mike asks

"yh it's kinda a mutual feeling I think like we were kinda growing more distant recently so it's a little awkward but I think things will be normal between us soon anyway like she understands stuff sooo"

"do the boys know?" Mike asks

"only andy so far, we just told him, he's gone out with De to get us all some breakfast. I'll tell the others when I get round to it. the thing is, neither of us are really upset about it. like it's sad but we're friends before anything else and we just weren't really right together as more than friends"

"aaannd you have some weird secret sex life with andy" mike jokes, well it's kinda true "This has been a strange couple of days" Mike sighs 

"yeah I agree," rye says

"I third that," I say walking into the corridor

"oh hey jack," Mike says 

"what ya'll talking about?" I ask, pretending I didn't hear half the conversation 

"well me and De have decided to like break up and stuff," rye tells me 

"shit, you okay man?" I say

"yeah, actually I'm good, it's not really that messy. was kinda a mutual thing yaknow" rye explains 

"fair enough," I say

"andy and De have gone to get food they'll be back soon" Mikey informs me

"okay sick, could yous take this down to the laundry room whilst we wait, I'm nearly finished cleaning the other room."

"yeh sure thing brother," rye says and takes the basket of bedding from my hands, they both leave the flat.

I go into mine and brooks room

"yo brook, get your lazy ass up and come help me"

"uhhmmm jacckk, my head hurts, I don't want to" brook moans and rolls about in his bed

"ugh ffs, why did you have to get a hangover, I hate cleaning" I roll my eyes and go to leave

"no jack stay" brook wines " pleeaassee. come cuddle"

"brook I've gotta finish tidying"

"then come back when you're done?" he asks

"only if you get up and help" I tease

brook moans a bit more and decides to come help

"see it wasn't that hard was it now" I baby him and mess with his hair, he playfully shoves me sideways

there really wasn't that much to do. we cleared the kitchen, did some washing up and went back to brooks bed waiting until they come back with food. 

I still feel kinda weird but being with brook, in his arms, this is nice.