After we left the mall, we were only about fifteen minutes away from our apartment thank goodness. Ashton's car was in need of a cleaning and I had some laundry to do. And by some I mean my laundry from the week.
And the boss laundry...
Its not their fault they have no idea how to do anything llike laundry, or cook, or clean. You could say I do because I'm a girl, but I really just do it cause I love helping people out. That's Why I cannot wwait to have a family of my own.
Okay, I know what your thinking... Stella cant wait to have her own family? Meanwhile she has commitment issues, couldn't wait to get away from her family, and she lives with four insane boys who love her but her (being the indecisive idiot she is) just cant fucking pick which boy...
Yup. That's what you people are thinking. DONT JUDGE ME.
I'm damn scared that's all. I blame most of it on my childhood I guess... It was shitty... My dad left my family after cheating and abusing me, my mom, and my two sisters. My mom just couldn't take it and she ended up pretty off it for a while. She just hares me now cause I really am a pain in the ass. I had a dice with drugs for a while and that made her lose trust in me.
She promised that when I turned eighteen that she would throw me out. I never thought she was serious. Good thing I saved up and can pay for college.
My two sisters are never around much. They both have families and jobs. I never bothered to tell them that our mom and I are not on speaking terms. I don't want tto worry them...
That's why I'm indecisive... That's why I'm scared. Because I'm scared I will just lose myself in the world if I grow up and change. Then who will I be?
Stella.
"Stella!" Calum yells in my ear. I jump and look at him. I fell asleep in the car. I nod to him and rub my eyes. He just laughs.
"We have a surprise for you." He says smiliing. He grabs my hand and pulls me out of the backseat of Ash's car. Slaming tthe door behind us, he drags me up the steps to the front door of our apartment. I basically was dreading opening the door because I knew I would be met with a mess. Clothes everywhere, Michael and Luke fighting of pizza, and Ashton taking about thirty selfies while lounging on the couch across a pile of dirty clothes. I can see it now.
Calum swung the front door open and I cringed.
"Viola!" He says. I look in the door to see the house is clean. I gasp.
Michael, Luke, and Ashton are all in the kitchen running around. I hear some All Time Low playing. Specifically Wheightless.
"You slept in the car for like an hour and wr wantdd to surprised you. We did the laundry and we are making dinner now. You always clean up after us and we decided its your turn." Calum said smiling. I bit my lip to fight back tears. I grabbed him into a hug.
I released Cal out of the hug and walked over to the stereo. Turning up the music I dance around and go into the kitchen. Hugging each boy as I go, singing the lyrics with them, filling the apartment with laughter and songs.
Manage me, I'm a mess Turn a page, I'm abook half unread I wanna be laughed at, laughed with, just because I wanna feel weightless and that should be enough
Michael picked me up and spun me around. I couldn't help ht laugh hysterically and attempt to sing at the same time.
But I'm stuck in this fucking rut Waiting on a second-hand pick-me-up And I'm over getting older
If I could justfind the time Then I would never let another day go by I'm over getting old
I felt connected to that song. I always talk about my shit life but I don't do much to fix it...
Maybe it'snot my weekend but it's gonnabe my year And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes passasI go nowhere And this is my reaction to everything I fear 'Cause I've been going crazy,I don't wanna waste another minute here
I don't wanna waste another minute not enjoying my last summer with these boys.
I make believe that I impress That every word, by design, turns a head I wanna feel reckless, wanna live it up just because I wanna feel weightless 'cause that would be enough
If I could justfind the time Then I would never let another day go by I'm over getting old
Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes passas I go nowhere And this is my reaction to everything I fear 'Cause I've been going crazy,I don't wanna waste another minute here
I stop dancing and look at my friends. They dance around Nd smile at meike they don't have a care on the world. Their lives have not been peices of cake either. But they are still happy. So why shouldnt I start being happy too?
This could be all that I've waited for. And this could be everything I don'twanna dream anymore
Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year And I've been going crazy, I'm stuck in here
Maybe it'snot my weekend but this could be my year And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes passas I go nowhere And this is my reaction to everything I fear 'Cause I've been going crazy,I don't want to waste another minute here
Maybe its not my weekend. But its gonna be my ssummer. Hell yeah.
I LOVE THIS CHAPTER. I WANNA TELL U GUYS YOU ARE ALL AAMAZING AND SPECIAL AND BE YOURSELF BECAUSE WHAT GOOD WILL YOU DO ANYONE BY NOT BEING YOURSELF? MAYBE IT WASNT YOUR DAY OR WEEKEND OR WEEK OR MONTH BUT IT CAN BE YOUR FUCKING YEAR. YOU ALL ARE PERFECT ILYSM AND SO DO MIKEY, LUKE, CALUM, AND ASHTON. BE YOURSELVES AND GET OUT OF WHATEVER KIND OF RUT YOU MAY OR MAY NOT BE IN. YOU ROCK!!!!
