It's been a few weeks and I haven't spoke to Grayson since I left.
Me and Carly ended up in New Jersey believe it or not.
It was nice here.
Peaceful and quiet, and has beauty like you've never seen.
Well maybe not as beautiful as Grayson.
But that's not the point.
I've had a few weeks to my low and stop thinking about him.
I haven't completely lost the thought of him but now I can say I don't feel guilty.
As of right now I feel happy and free.
It's the most amazing feeling to me.
Carly and I plan on going back to LA though but not to stay.
To say goodbye.
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As we boarded the plane all I could think about was leaving my lifelong home.
Yes it'll upset me at first but New Jersey is a place where I feel like being me.
I can let loose and not care if people are watching.
They just don't know me.
"What are you thinking about Hannah?" Carly asks as she sits in the seat next to me.
"Just about how I'm leaving LA for good, that's all.." I reply with a slight smile.
"You know we could still visit, I just want us to enjoy our lives to the fullest." She states as she opens a bag of peanuts.
"Yes I know and I am happy, I glad to feel free again and not guilty." I say as I smile.
"Great, I'm happy too." Carly said as she opened her book and began to read.
I laid back and looked at the clouds below us.
This was going to be a long flight so I mine as well make use of the surroundings.
Let's just say that the aesthetic was amazing.
I few hours pass and we board a second flight.
"Only a few more hours and will be on the ground for awhile." Carly joked.
She hated flying.
Only because she's obsessed with the show 9-1-1.
There happened to be a scene where a plane crashed into the ocean...
"Well i plan on using those hours to my advantage, NAP TIME!" I say causing other passengers to laugh.
My cheek filled with red.
Carly was dying, I just embarrassed myself bad.
"Goodnight." I mumble as she tries to catch her breath from laughing so hard.
