Jealousy

13// Funeral

Sara's POV:

His funeral is today at 10. Trevor's. I'm speaking and I don't think I am going to be able to make it through the whole thing.

I reread my eulogy over and over again, each time bringing tears to my eyes. Its not until the 100th time I read it I get through it without breaking down on the ground.

It's 9:30 am. I woke up at 8 am to yet another nightmare I've been having since the day Trevor left. Every night it's the same.

Trevor squeezes me while we are cuddling on the couch then kisses the top of my head. "I love you Sara."

"I love you to Trev." We are watching The Notebook, a movie that he dreads. "Sara I've liked you for a really long time, like ya know, more than a friend. I've just now built up the courage to ask you this, but will you be mine?" I never thought that Trevor could be more than a friend but we've known each other forever and I do love him.

"Of course Trev. I love you so much." He leans in to kiss me but when I expect for his lips to meet mine they don't. He's laying next to me with eyes closed and chest not moving, dead. "Trevor!!" A hand meets my shoulder. I look back seeing my mom shaking her head and saying, "He's gone Sara. I'm so sorry." Then I die inside all over again.

I wake up with bloodshot eyes and stained cheeks every morning.

I decide to get ready since it's in half an hour. I pull out my black dress that I've been dreading to where. The neck line goes all the way up to my neck and the sleeves are just little cuffs over my shoulders. I pull on black converse. Time to go.

Loren's POV:

Cassie came early this morning to help me get ready for the dreadful funeral. She cried in my arms as soon as she walked through the door. I have cried to. The first night I cried I didn't stop for a few hours. Trevor was a great person and now he's just gone. To young and innocent. Cassie pulls out my suit and tells me to put it on. She's in a beautiful black dress that reaches just above her knees and shows off all her curves. I can't believe she's wearing this to a funeral. I just want to grab her and make out with her. After I get the suit on, my family, Cassie, and I pile into our car and leave.

Sierra's POV:

I know I can't do this alone. What am I saying. I should be with Sara. She's the one that's taking this the hardest but she hasn't let anyone come over since the day... Last night Serena and Nate stayed at my house.

"Austin is meeting us here so we can all go together." Serena says to me and I nod my head.

We both pull on black dresses and black flats. She takes her time with her makeup while I help Nate with his tie. Men these days not knowing how to tie a tie. He sure does look handsome when I finish. Our doorbell rings. I look at the clock and it reads 10:45. I guess we should leave now that Austin is here.

"Mom! We are going to take my car. See you there!" 

Sara's POV:

The church is filled with people as I open the large doors. I look around. Classmates. Almost half of them are class mates. What the hell? They didn't even know Trevor! Probably never even talked to him! I am outraged because all of a sudden when I high school boy gets cancer and dies they all seem to care. None of them really care. I forget about them and walk to the front. The front 3 rows are reserved for family. "Sara, you are considered famliy. Please come sit with us." Trevor's mom leads me to the 3rd row. My friends are sitting right behind me. "Uhm can I have Sierra please come sit with me. I need her." "Of course dear."

I turn around and tell Sierra to come sit by me. She tells Nate and he says back, "Yea yea of course, go." She comes and sits right next to me and grabs my hand. "Sara, everythings going to be ok." And before you know it I'm bawling into her shoulder even before the funeral starts.