Changed

Twenty

Thank you sa lahat ng nagbabasa nito! I am soooo inspired by you. xxxxxx

-TWENTY-

Amilyte's POV

I was shivering hard. Pumanik ako sa room, and binuksan yung shower. Without bothering to remove my clothes, I stepped into the warmness of the water. Ayokong magsalim at makita ang sarili ko.

I cleared my head. Naiinis ako kay Sage. Pwede namang sabihin niya ng maayos kung ayaw niya sakin. Hindi ko naman siya pinipilit na patirahin ako dito. Kung ako ang tatanungin gugustuhin ko pang sa bahay magisa. At least dun, tanggap ako ng mga tao. Hindi tulad dito. Bakit ba kasi parang nananadya si mama? What did this asshole do? My mom trusts him more than she trusts me.

I feel so frustrated at everything that I my hands found their way toward the cigarette's place. I'm so sorry.

Ang lamig pa din. My hands were numb, I can barely lit the lighter. I dropped the bowl's lid and sat on it. Somehow uminit and I was a little bit relaxed... Until I coughed and sneezed.

Crap. Tinapon ko na yung cigarette at humiga sa bed. I was such a bad influence to everyone. I seldom smoke because I'm not suicidal. Ugh. Dammit. I wanna explode right here, right now.

Everybody's pushing me to the edge. My mom, Sage, Gie. Yung wings sa pictorial, the fringe, the names, the people in the past. Everything in the freaking past is coming back to me. Hindi ko na kaya. Ang dami nila, isa lang ako.

Hindi ko naramdaman, umiiyak na pala ko. I hid beneath my pillows. Ang sakit na lahat sila sinasabi na mali ako, dapat ganito yung ugali ko. Gulong gulo na ko. Lahat nagbabago na pero kasabay din nung ang pagkalito.

I am a hypocrite. My soul is so lost. I am lost. My whole mental mind is missing.

I sobbed harder and harder until I heard a ring. Hindi ko pinansin. I was good at ignoring people, right? Ito ang expertise ko.

Nakatatlong ring pero hindi ko sinagot. My whole system is falling one by one. I wanna stop. But how can I stop if everyone's pushing?

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3rd Person's POV

Kanina pa balisa si Divine sa nalaman. Gusto niya itong sabihin pero alam niya hindi pwede.

"Talia, alam mo ba kung asan si Amilyte?" Hindi din niya natiis at tinawagan kung sino ang alam niyang malapit kay Ami.

"She's with Sage. Why?"

"May number ka ba nila?" She was surprised to how nervous Divine sounded.

Weird, she thought. Nung una, naisip niya na may gusto si Divine kay Sage but being Divine, it'll never happen.

"Yes," Talia gave her the number and after it, she called Sage's house.

"Hello?" Sakto naman na si Sage ang nakasagot. Paalis na sana siya.

"A-andito ba si Ami?" She asked nervously.

"May I ask who is this?"

"Divine Soledad."

"Ah! Hey, Divine!" He said cheerfully after recognizing her from Ami's circle of friends.

"Sage?"

"Yep. Amilyte's sleeping though. I'll return the call later. Sabihin ko tumawag ka." Ibababa na sana niya yung phone nung nagsalita si Divine.