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Thirty-two

-THIRTY-TWO-

Elizabeth Camarillo everyone.

Amilyte's POV

I was crying all the way to the garden. Ang kulit kulit naman kasi ni Sage. Sabi ko na kasi na umalis na siya. Wala namang nangyari sakin. I feel like I'm a loser. Maybe I really am a pathetic loser. Wala na kong alam sabihin kung hindi sorry. Sorry. Everything's my fault.

"Give me your hand," he demanded. Natawa ako ng mapakla.

"Who the fuck are you?" I told him, wiping this stupid water on my eyes. My weak heart was tearing me apart. Bakit ba nakakaramdam pa ko? I should be numb from pain pero ang daya. Walang bang exemptions sa pain? If I am the richest person on earth, I'd buy pain and kill it. I'd rather be cold than to experience this unbearable pain of seeing someone you once lost, damaged and broken.

Why did I make a big mistake? I thought it was for their sake. But it wasn't. All I did was nothing--nothing. No asses were saved from pain. I thought it was for the best, but I guess the best was the new worst.

Maybe I was crying hard. I can't feel my tears anymore. All I can experience is the pain in my heart. It was more than a million bees stinging my heart one by one. Yun naman ang sabi nila diba? Mas masakit pag dahan dahan. I believe in that crap. If united, isang bagsak lang, pero pagisa-isa mas matagal. It was like eating a cup full of chocolate ice-cream which taste like poop together with bitter-gourd, salt, and chili pepper.

Hindi ko na namalayan, nakaupo ako. Talia was hugging me and she was silently crying.

"I'm sorry I'm making you cry too," I told her in between of my sobs.

"It's all okay." We stayed like that for minutes, holding onto each other's arm. Talia is special. Kahit hindi niya alam lahat, she stayed with me. What if I told her everything? What if I told her I once tried to kill Sage, her beloved cousin? Will she disgust me or hate me like everybody else does?

"Ami, drink this first." She held the glass to my lips. It was cold against my throat like my heart soon enough.

"Thank you," I mumbled as she wiped my tears away from my face.

"Stop crying na, Ami." She hugged me once more and I tried so hard not to cry again.

"Where are you going?"

"Sage's asking me to leave. Kakausapin ka." I thought I was hallucinating. Sage's not here but when I wandered my eyes, I found him leaning against a tree, holding a first aid kit on his hand.

Lumapit siya samin at inakbayan si Talia then he murmured something to her. She gave me a squeeze after going back inside. I left with Sage staring right through me. His expression in undeniable. I can't place whether he's sad or happy or rejoice.

My palm was starting to feel funny. I hugged my knees, and there I rested my chin, looking at my toes to avoid Sage's gaze. The air was damp and so is the grass beneath me.

I didn't look up when he held my arm. Naupo siya sa tabi ko. He sighed then went to fix my palm or any part that was damaged.

"Tell me if it hurts. There's glass inside." I nodded and bit my lips. I groaned a little.

"It's done. You can look now."

"I'm not scared of my own blood," I mumbled mostly to myself.

"Honestly I didn't know my ate's gonna be here tonight."

I didn't talk. Silence enveloped us until he kissed my cheek, then left without a word.

Jacky's POV