Rendition

💽Volume 17

Living me behind is like killing me inside.

_Scarlet

"Sinabi ko bang tumayo ka? UPO!" Kita ang gulat sa mga mukha nila ng sumigaw na si Scarlet ng tangkang umalis ni Ali. "ANO?!" Bulalas nito.

"Scarlet please not this way." Aga reprimanded for Scarlet to smile bitterly. Sa tuno ng pananalita ni Aga parang mas gusto pa nitong hindi niya malaman ang totoo.

"Hah. So in what way? Kung sa bagay who am i to get in your ways nga naman diba? Fine." She stand, trying to be a strong lady.

"Sab please sa susunod na lang natin taposin ito kung kailan hindi ka na lasing, sige na." Akay sa kanya ni Aga.

"Really Dad?" She disappointingly look at him. "Okay, but let me tell you a secret. I sometimes a fool but not foolishly stupid to be brainless. Better not let your hopes up, i'm not Yna in Pangako Sayo nor Mara in Mara Clara." She stated while smirking. "Those idiot ang daling magpatawad. Kung sabagay soap opera iyon and this is reality kaya ang laki ng difference, diba?" She confidently look at them still smirking.

"Sab." Rege called out when Scarlet turn her back at them. "I'm- I'm so sorry." Halos hindi niya mabigkas iyon dahil sa kaka-iyak, mabuti nalang at nandiyan si Ali para pakalmahin siya.

SCARLET

I may regret this later but, I can't force myself not to hate them. They have no idea what pain they've caused me for years. They may have reason but how come it took them years to see me as one, isn't it bullshit!? Paalis na dapat ako eh, peru ng marinig ko kung paano niya ako tawagin sa pangalang matagal ko ng hindi naririnig, nakakatawa at nakakainis. Ang isiping hinangaan ko siya ng matagal subrang nakakawalang gana, ang sakit palang humanga. Is this how it feels?

"Sab please." She called me out again and this time I did face her. Nanay ko ba talaga siya? Kaya ba ang lala kong magreact when it comes to her? But-- To see her cry makes me emotional too, yet i can't do anything about this cause even i, don't want to feel it and i won't embrace it cause i know i'll forgive her that easily and forget what she did. Ano ako tanga. "I'm sorry." Paulit-ulit niyang paghingi ng tawad kahit halos hindi na siya makapagsalita, while me, hito napaupo sa isang sulok. Iwan ko ba sa tuwing napapatingin ako sa kanya gusto kong sumigaw at umiyak. But crying wasn't in my option it would just make me look so pitifull and i don't want them to see me in that situation.

"How can your sorry fix me? All this time you make me look like an idiot. So stupid to be attached with a trickster woman like you. All of you played my emotions. All along I thought I have no right to seek for your attentions kasi hindi ko naman kayo kaano-ano yun pala tama lang yung nararamdaman ko." Ayan tuloy hindi ko na napigilan pa. Tumayo narin ako sinasayang ko lang ang oras ko sa walang kwentang tao. "I'm done, your sorry can't change a thing." Dugtong ko at nag-umpisang maglakad.

"Your hopeless." Rinig kong sabat ni Ali. "How can we fix this if you don't listen." She said angrily kaya tumigil ako at hinarap siya.

"Ang dali lang sabihin kasi wala ka sa lugar ko." I look at her coldly. Wala akong pakialam kung hindi niya maintindihan yun.