Keep Falling For You

Chapter 6 (Part One)

Caspar's POV

The car ride was awfully quiet. I kept looking over at Liv who was biting her lip, playing with her phone (which was something she did when she was nervous) and staring out the window. I wonder what she was thinking about?

"W-What are you thinking about?" I ask without hesitation keeping my eyes on the road, but still managing to take a sneaky glance at her. 

"H-Huh?" She stutters out as I frown. All I wanted to do was be able to hug and tell her everything was going to be alright. I really did want to be there not just for her but for Bell too. 

"I asked what you was thinking about Liv?" I smile as I place my hand on top of hers but frown when  I feel her tense up and push it away. 

"N-nothing." She manages to spit out trying not to make eye - contact with me as I pull up into the car park. I had taken her to Pizza Hut, which is her favourite place to eat and funnily enough where we had our first date. 

"Come on Liv, Talk to me." I beg trying to use my puppy dog eyes as I watch her eyes widen when she realises where we were. 

"I-I don't know what to say Casp." I've never heard her stutter so much around me before, but I did smile and feel warm when she called me that. It had been a while. 

"Come on, let's go in." I say to her calmly as we both get out of the car.

Liv's POV

I have never felt so awkward and timid in my whole life. 

So many emotions were running through my body in that car journey, I wanted to hug him, kiss him and just be there for him but I also wanted to cry and scream at him for what he did to me. I was confused. I wish Beth was here, she'd tell me what to do.  I didn't know how to act around him, he's like a complete different person to me now. 

"Table for two please." Caspar tells the waitress who smiles as we walk in.

"Come with me, there's a table at the back." The waitress smiles flirtatiously as I roll my eyes. 

"Thank you." He was always to polite. 

"My name is Claire, I will be your waitress for today. Here are the menus I will come back shortly to take your orders." Claire flirts to Caspar who smiles back. 

"Talk to me." I look over to Caspar who has a concerned but caring look on his face as I sigh. I knew he wasn't going to give up but how can I let someone who hurt me so much back into my life like that? It wasn't going to happen overnight. 

"I-I told you Caspar. I don't know what to say. I have nothing I want to say to you." I tell him, I felt guilty I really did especially when I saw that frown on his face. But, it's too hard. I knew it was going to be even harder to put on a brave face when he comes with me to pick Bell up. 

"Liv please... I can't stand how you wont talk to me. Tell me what I have to do to make things right." Caspar talks quite loudly flapping his arms around causing me to get annoyed. I have to tell him? 

"I told you Caspar. I have nothing I want to say to you. You hurt me Caspar in so many ways. I think about you on a daily basis. I hated and still hate you for what you did to me. I can't believe you have the decency to tell me you hate me, not talking to you. Where were you two years ago Casp? Where were you? Through the two years of me raising Bell? Exactly! You weren't there! I've lost all trust in you Caspar! And it's not going to be as easy as that! Now if you excuse me, I'm going to get the bus and pick up MY Daughter from nursery!  It's down to you to make things right. If you can. Because right now, I don't know what I'm thinking!" I lash out as I feel tears trickle down my cheeks. Why is this so hard? I know he's only trying but he needs to realise what he's done and only he can decide what he needs to do to make things right. 

Caspar's POV

"I told you Caspar. I have nothing I want to say to you. You hurt me Caspar in so many ways. Ii think about you on a daily basis. I hated and still hate you for what you did to me. I can't believe you have the decency to tell me you hate me not talking to you. Where were you two years ago Casp? Where we you through the two years of me raising Bell? Exactly! You weren't there! I've lost all trust in you Caspar! And it's not going to be as easy as that! Now if you excuse me, I'm going to get the bus and pick up MY Daughter from nursery! It's down to you to make things right. If you can. Because right now, I don't know what I'm thinking!" Liv lashes out as I saw the tears trickle down her face but not for long as she stormed out the restaurant. 

"Liv!" I begin to yell out after her. I chased after her and managed to grab her hand pulling her back slightly into me.

"Leave me alone Caspar. What do you want?" She flaps about as tears are falling faster down her face. I pull her in for a hug, she tenses at first and then hugs back.

" I want you Liv." I begin to say as I pull her away from me and she looks down. I lift her head up so  I can look her in the eyes. "I want you Liv, I want to be back in your life, I want to be in Annabelle's life too. I truly am sorry for what I have done and I'm going to make it up to you. If it takes the rest of my life to do it, then that's what I am willingly to do. I love you Liv. Now, let's go pick up Annabelle early." I say to her as her eyes widen at me and I see a slight blush on her cheeks, she was always cute when she blushed, Liv nodded not knowing what to say and we walked back to the car.