Keep Falling For You

Chapter 6 (Part 3)

Liv's POV

"I love you." I say to my favourite little girl  as I put her down in her bed, making a mental note, that I need to redecorate her room now she's getting bigger. I can't believe how quick she's growing up. She is literally the best thing that's ever happened to me. 

"She's beautiful." I hear a familiar voice startle me from my trail off thoughts. 

"She is isn't she." I reply turning around to Zoe. "Zo, I'm sorry I didn't explain to you everything that had happened between us. It was just too hard." I begin to apologise running a hand through my hair which was something I did when I was nervous or stressed.  I felt very guilty of not explaining everything to the others but with what happened between Caspar and I, was very difficult and I struggled to handle it,  I still am. 

"Liv." Zoe begins smiling at me as usual. "You don't need to be sorry.  Yes, I felt a bit hurt that you didn't tell me everything because I see you as a sister and I thought we told each other everything but Beth explained everything to us and I totally understand why you didn't or couldn't tell me. It's alright, hun. Seriously, I am here for you and I am here for Caspar. I just want you to be happy. How's it going between you to?" She asks as I make a 'Shh' action with my finger as we both walk out of Belle's room trying not to wake her up and pulling the door to, grabbing the baby monitor with me. 

"Let's go into my room." I tell Zoe, as I thank my lucky stars it was right opposite. "Sorry, what was the question?" I ask her as I sit down at my desk chair as she takes a seat onto my bed. 

"How's it going with Caspar?" My heart stops when I hear his name. 

"I-I don't know." I begin feeling myself get worked up over everything again. "Like he is perfect with her, and the way they both have a bond with each other is amazing. But... Zoe, I don't know if I can trust him again. He has hurt me, in so many ways and I thought out of everyone he'd be that one person who wouldn't do that to me you know? I just... Why does he want to come back to my life now you know? He hasn't tried to contact me in nearly two years and now he suddenly wants to be back in my life. For me, It's going to take a lot of trust but I don't want Belle to get attached to him and for him to leave us again." I try to explain to Zoe as I felt a warm tear trickle down my  face. "Oh crap." I say chuckling slightly as more tears fall down.

"Heyy..." Zoe begins coming over and wrapping her arms around me for a hug. 

"I just don't know what to do anymore Zoe. I really don't" I mumble into her shoulder, her pretty dress getting damp but I don't think she seemed to mind. 

"Hey... I know it's been hard for you. And Liv, you've done amazing to have brought Belle up on your own. She is beautiful and your an amazing mummy. But, now we are all here for you and you need to focus on yourself. We're here to help you with that and I can see a lot more has happened that none of us know about even Caspar but we are here for you and we understand its going to take some time." Zoe tells me as I pull away from her. 

"It's just hard Zoe. My feelings for Caspar are still there, I've never not stopped loving him but what has happened has hurt me and I've lost all trust in him. I don't know if I can overcome that again." I explain to her. "Sorry about your dress." I chuckle pointing to her left shoulder. 

"It's alright." She shrugs her shoulders. "But hey, we all going to be here for the next few weeks and we ARE going to have some fun." She continues to tell me as a laugh remembering the fun times we all use to have. "Take sometime and come down when your ready all right. I think we are all going to have a movie night tonight and order some take - away." Zoe hugs me one more time before leaving my room. I sigh, when did life get so hard?

Zoe's POV

"Hey, babe. Everything ok?" Alfie asks walking up to me as I reach the last step, shaking my head. The others were all sat in the front room having there own conversations. "What's wrong?" He asks with worry written all over his face.

"Liv." I whisper quietly sighing. "She's really hurt by everything that has happened between her and Caspar. We just had a heart to heart and she burst into tears, she's so confused and she doesn't know what to do." I begin to explain to Alfie who was listening to everything I was saying.

"She needs some time babe. A lot has happened between them two." 

"I know." I begin running a hand through my hair. "I just wish there was a way to help her, and be there for the both of them." 

"All we can do now, is support them and try and be there for the pair of them. They have both been through a lot and right now all we can do is be a friend and stand by them with whatever choices they make." Alfie explains to me pulling in for a hug. 

Caspar's POV

"So, what film should we watch?" Zoe asks as we all gather around the front room, spreading ourselves onto each sofa and scattering ourselves around onto the floor. There was one person missing. 

"IT!" Alfie exclaims as the girls shudder causing us all to laugh.

"No we are not watching IT." A voice that caused me to have the all to familiar butterflies appear in my tummy again says as she walked into the room. I could tell she had been crying, she was wearing her favourite 'FRIENDS' pyjamas, her hair was slightly messy and she had bloodshot eyes. I wanted to find out why  she was upset. 

"Why not?" Alfie asks pouting and pulling his all to familiar puppy dog eyed look. 

"Because I do not want you scaring the living daylights out of my daughter." She explains to us chuckling slightly as comes to sit down next to me. "I think we should watch Hairspray." She continues pulling her famous puppy dog eyes as the other boys and I sigh and the girls cheer.

"Hairspray it is!" Catherine exclaims clapping her hands together in excitement. She got up to find the dvd in the dvd rack which was next to the TV and popped the dvd in. Just as we was about to start the film,  Belle was crying through the baby monitor and  I could hear Liv sigh.

"I'll get her." Everyone's head turned round to face me. 

"No, no, no I'll do it, it's fine." Liv tells me as she begins to get up.

"Honestly. Let me. Please." Liv sighs and mouths a 'Thank you' to me.