Transgender Problems 2

300 ! 🎉

first of all i cannot BELIEVE ive made this many chapters ??
i appreciate you guys so much skdncksj
an update on my life and why i haven't been on:

my grandma , who i lived with , died . i feel extremely bad because i wasn't at home , i was with my other grandparents . i never thought to call her bc of everything she's said to me .

remember all those stupid chapters about how i loved that boy and then he finally asked me out and i was happy again ?
i believe my latest "i need a break" chapter was because of him .
he broke up with me . right before my grandma died . and ive been contemplating suicide ever since then .

one of my friends is becoming very distant and i hate it .

if i didn't say already , my aunt physically abused me . i threatened to call the cops . my mom , aunt , grandma , and cousin all laughed as my mom said "if you called the police , after four minutes of talking to you , they'd wonder why you didn't have more bruises !"
the bruise from my aunt shoving me lasted several weeks .
my mom says we might have to live with her . when i argued that she abused me , my mom said it was hardly considered abuse .
now i don't even like calling it abuse .

my dad is mad at me . he's an alcoholic . i told him i wasn't comfortable seeing him until he stopped drinking . he scoffed and said "whatever" .

my grandparents took me to a therapist bc they wanted me to get help .
she was a marriage counselor , had no idea about teenagers .
she cut me off in the middle of stories (by stories i mean like what happened when my aunt and cousin physically hurt me) and saying i took too long .
she told me internet friends are stupid when , without them , id be dead .

but anyways .

i finally dyed my hair !!