sorry fr not updating and sorry if i take a break . i have some health issues coming up and my mom doesn't really care n it's bothering me . basically sometimes I get these random days where i can't eat because when i do i get extremely sick . ive lost a lot of weight because of it before (i once lost ten pounds in one week and constantly stay underweight) and it worries because i want to know whats wrong but my mom just makes fun of me and says stuff like "oh no !! you're anorexic !!! go ahead and starve yourself , you won't get past a week(-:" but it's not like that . i don't do it on purpose . i just get so sick that i don't wanna make myself feel worse . and a lot of times I don't realize im not eating . it's just getting worse and i can't get help unless my mom realized i can't help it .
but i also don't mind the fact im losing weight . that doesn't bother me . and that worries me too , bc i don't wanna enjoy that im losing weight like this and i shouldn't like the emptiness i feel after making myself sick . but if i told my mom again , she'd laugh . so i don't know anymore . i don't feel good right now because it's happening .
sorry for venting .
