MADISON'S

I don't understand..

a.n. i made this late when all my thoughts come out so TRIGGER. WARNING. read at your own riSK I WARNED YOU

Veronica's POV

Madison C drove me home, well, her driver did. Does she know how to drive?

I don't think I'm safe by myself anymore.

I call Madison and ask if she'll come over. She says yes and her driver must be pissed off, he just drove me home. She knocks, I answer and we head to my bedroom.

"What's wrong Veronica?"

I pull up my sleeve, and sigh as she starts to cry.

I shouldn't have done this.

I'm sorry.. I think. This is what it's like to be in love, huh?

I just can't say anything. I don't know why.

7.6 billion people in the world. One right next to me, and I still feel lonely.

Why?

She hugs me, and I just have frozen in place.

Eventually I hug back and we stay like that for what feels like eternity.

Nothing's going on all around us. I feel safe for once. I like this feeling.

I like her. A lot. A shit fuckin' ton.

I want to make her feel like our relationship is worth it. I'm too self-conscious for my own good.

It seems like a bad idea. I don't want to get caught.

It's worth it, Veronica. You love her. She loves you.

A rush of thoughts flood my head when she gets up and leaves, saying a simple 'I have to go' on her way out.

a.n. thoughts coming :/

Why was I the one for her?

Would the world be better off without me?

I want out of life.

How do I exit life?

I'm scared.

I don't like it here.

I like her.

I want to die.

I'm often upset.

How does one kill themself?

I should never do this again.

What would happen if I killed myself?

Would I feel pain when I'm dead?

What happened?

Why don't I understand life?

Please help..

Do my parents own guns?

Cutting does help. Right?

After I'm dead nobody will remember me.

The world would be better off without me.

I get up, seeing that its morning already.

I reluctantly slip on different clothes, my backpack, and head to the bus stop.

When I get there, I notice a car pull up. It's small, but nice. I look in the window and it's Madison.

"Get in! It's starting to rain."

I hop in the car, noticing a slight drizzle started to fall. I didn't even notice.

"That's your bus stop, I'm assuming?"

"Yeah."

"I'm lucky I have a car! If you'd like, I can give you rides to school?"

"No, I'm okay. Thanks though."

"At least let me give you rides back."

"Fine. Thanks."

"Don't worry about it!"

I give her a short nod and turn my head to look to the rain.

a.n. this was short cuz i thought i could come up with more stuff but no APPARENTLY NOT so sorry. new story coming out soon though because I have no lifeeeeee yay