Roadtrip Fanfic: 5th Wheel

5 : Come out already!

Jack's POV:

I was falling in love for the first time. I was falling in love with my best friend. I was falling in love with a boy. I was falling in love with Brooklyn.

I don't care what people think anymore. I can't change who I love and god damn I love Brooklyn. Everyday I'd fall for him more and more. We had been dating about a month now but neither of us had came out so therefore we had to keep our relationship a secret. Sneaking behind huts to kiss him and into his bed when the others were sleeping. I was happy for the first time in a long time but I hated keeping it a secret from everyone. I wanted to show the world how much I loved him.

"Brooklyn can I speak to you for a minute"I asked shyly.
"Yeah sure"he said.
I lead him to the hall so no one would hear. We sat in silence for a few minutes before it was broken by Brooklyn saying "so what's up..."
"Well I've been thinking..."I started.
"Jack you can tell me I won't be mad" he said almost knowing how I felt.
"Right yeah... well I was wondering if maybe you errr... wanted to come out..." I whispered almost inaudibly. I looked down at the ground unable to look at his disappointed expression.
He was silent for a moment before mumbling "I'm sorry I just don't think that I'm ready."
"Babe I know this is hard but I can't hide anymore" I pleaded eventually looking into his watery eyes.
"Jack I need more time... I can't do this right now. I'm not ready for the hate and for people to disown me! I just can't I can't do it!" He said gradually getting angry with his fear and emotions. He hastily stood up and leaned against the window ledge.
"Brooklyn your not going to be disowned. It's gonna be okay babe-"I was cut off. "No just don't jack don't pressure me into doing this!" He shouted.
I was slightly taken aback by his sudden strike of anger.
"Look Brooklyn I love you and I want the world to know I want to hold your hand and kiss you in public i don't wanna hide anymore and if people hate us for it then fuck them because they don't get to say who I do and don't love!" I fought back standing us and turning him around to face me tears streaming down both our faces.
"And I want all that too but I just need more time" he tried.
"Well I don't know how much longer I can wait..."I admitted feeling hurt that he was scared of loving me in public.
"What's that supposed to mean" he cried.
I looked at him his eyes red and puffy. It broke my heart to see him so upset and broken but in that moment he understood that I just couldn't wait. He looked disappointed as he pushed past me and into the flat. I broke down hardly able to breath. I know it's only been a month but god I loved him more than anything and I was just trying to show him and everyone else just how much.

Wake up. Gym. Studio. Studio. Studio. Gym. Bed.
We had a busy day ahead of us it was only 2pm and I was already knackered. We were only about an hour into studio when I started feeling dizzy. I persuaded myself it was just because of lack of sleep after the fight Brooklyn and I had but I knew it was more when everything started to go blurry and then black. Pitch black.

Brooklyn's POV:

Jack and I haven't spoken for about a week I felt so bad but he had to understand where I was coming from.

We were in studio when I noticed that he was looking pale and almost unwell. I was aware that he hadn't been eating or sleeping as much since the fight but I didn't realise just how badly it was affecting him.

Moments later I looked over at him and as I did I watched him fall to the floor collapsing looking almost dead. I ran over to him in utter shock not caring if we had fought days before. I only cared about him and his health. As he currently lay in my arms looking lifeless I couldn't help but regret everything that I'd said days before. I felt a tear roll down my cheek and before I knew it I was having a complete break down. The other boys were surrounding us before Mikey grabbed me pulling me outside to try calm me down.

"Brooklyn what's wrong"he asked concerned.
I couldn't speak I instead just put my head in my hands crying even harder when I felt him pull me into a hug.

After I had calmed down a bit he asked again what was wrong.
"I'm sorry" I mumbled.
"Hey it okay but what's up...has something happened between you and jack?" He questioned as if he already knew.
"To be honest a lots happened between me and jack" I confessed instantly regretting it.
He was quite for a minute before saying.
"Do you wanna talk about it?"
I looked up at him. I knew what I had to do. And I knew I had to do it for jack.
"Jack and I... we errr well we are d-da-ting" I choked on the last word felling almost ashamed.
I was soon greeted my a very unexpected hug. "I'm happy for you mate! You don't have to be ashamed or anything I think you guys are kinda cute together" mikey said in support.
I looked up at him shocked.
"So you don't like hate me or anything?!"I asked.
"What no never your like my brother I would never hate you for your sexuality!" He said reassuringly.