*Kaitlin's POV*
I finished taking Sky a bath.I found out some things about her like.
Her full name is Skyblue Jackson
She has a mom and a dad who weren't very good at being parents.She said that her parents told her that they were going to abort her but decided they could use a maid.
She asked what abort was,but I just changed the subject.
I wrapped a towel around her and carried her onto my bed.She stood up.
I quickly changed her,then carried her downstairs.
I sat her on the couch and put on some random cartoons on.
I walked into the kitchen to make Sky and me a snack.
I could hear her squeal and say something,but I couldn't quite hear well.
I could hear steps walking over my way.I wonder who, everyone went to a party and I am here,not that I mind but I wonder who's here?
I felt two warm arms wrap around my waist."Michael?" I giggled
"Wrong guess"...well shit I got myself in quite a fucking situation.
This voice only belonged to one person,the same person I kissed a couple nights ago,when I felt the things I thought I'd never feel.The feelings I had dreamed of for years.
"Aren't you suppose to be at a party" I hissed
He rolled his eyes and pressed his lips against mine.
I just stood there not kissing back,i pushed him away.He was way too strong for me.
I tried pushing even more,he grabbed my wrist pressing me against the counter.
I tried pushing him and getting out of his grasp.
I raised my knee.He backed away from me and groaned in pain.
"Don't...Ever..touch...me..again" I said in between breaths.
I grabbed Sky and carried her upstairs.
When I got to my room I just laid her on the bed,she played with her toys for a little while then fell asleep.
I sat on the edge of my bed and played with the ends of my hair.I felt a couple tears stream.
You are such a slut,you always have been so really it's not surprise you would let him kiss you...no surprise
A young mother,ha that child will grow up with an insane ugly,fat mother.She will be embarrassed of you when you walk her to school or go out with her.You will be single and she will rather be with her other parents...her real parents.
Just get the razor,split that 'wonderful' pale skin of yours in two.The thing that gives you so much pleasure,anyways no one will care nor see.
I opened the little container where I kept them.I played around with it for a little while,turning it around,checking how sharp it is.
I pulled my sleeve up and slit it across a couple times.I walked backwards until my back was fully pressed against the bathroom wall.
I slid down and sobbed.I dropped my head into my hands.
I looked at my wrist.
I traced over the freshly cuts.I sighed.
I'm so disgusting I thought.
I cleaned my self up and the bloody sink too.
I walked outside and looked at the
Beach, it's 15 minutes away by driving but in the car only about 5 minutes.
I silently sobbed.I Fucking hate myself.
"I fucking hate myself"i whispered this time.
"It's not your fault,things may be a little rough right now,but I'm pretty sure they'll be fine later.Just like a pimple, it appears for a little while making you look bad but once it leaves your skin is flawless"Calum said
I couldn't see him well,i could only see the outline of his shadow.
"Wow I guess dicks can sometimes say things like that" I said sarcastically.
I took a cigarette out of the pack that was in my sweater and lit it up.
"I remember when you asked me for one" he chuckled.His brown eyes met with mine, they flickered onto my lips and back up.
He licked his lips."Calum..."i trailed off.
I threw my cigar and smushed it with my shoe.
"Calum you need to stop, I have a relationship with a guy I really love and he loves me back..And every time you always come and try to get in between.That needs to stop, you have Samantha who truly adored you" I said
He sighed and rubbed his temples. "Im really truly sorry, I just really like you, I have always liked you the only reason I treated you bad was cause you went out with Blake.I was angry at you because you listened to that jerk and went out with him,he only wanted to have sex with you.I thought you deserved pain.I was hurt.I had told him I liked you but he didn't listen, he ignored me." tears rolled down his cheeks
"I was only planning for me to hurt you,not the whole school,they just kinda followed me.I just wish you could forgive me...hell,I cant even forgive myself... I never will" he continued with his voice cracking at the end
I wiped some of the tears that were drying on my cheeks with my sleeves.
"Well I can't forgive you...not after all you put me through.Do you know how many times I ended up in a hospital because of you? I was already having troubles at home and all you did was make it worse, your lucky I'm still alive" I spat, more tears spilled.
He sobbed, I moved my hair out of my face and continued "I am fucking insane because of you... I hear these voices that tell me things and I can't get rid off" I yelled
I sniffed "Just keep dreaming cause I am never going to forgive you, Goodnight" I yelled and ran inside.
I looked at myself in the mirror.
I was a mess.I laid next to Sky, surprisingly she's still sleeping.I played with her hair.
"I hope you don't become like me" I whispered and kissed her forehead.
I tried sleeping but I couldn't...i guess my normal routine is going to start again
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So this is my Update I'm really sorry about yesterday,i stayed over at my cousins and I spent most of my time with them
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