Wolfdale

TWELVE (Iselen P.O.V)

I'm sleeping. I know it because I'm dreaming. And I know that I'm dreaming because this isn't the first time that I've dreamt about this... however this time seems different. I hope that it ends differently too so this time it won't be a nightmare. Everything's fine at first: the forest looks bright green, the sunlight filters through the leaves highlighting the beautiful flowers on the ground, it's hot and the air smells so good. Someone laughs by my side and holds my hand to make sure that I don't stumble on a tree root while I'm walking... and that's the first difference. When I look down I realize that the arm that is holding me is covered in tattoos: it's Ruby the one who walks by my side. I've never been able to see my companion so clearly in my previous dreams; I knew she was a woman, someone that I loved judging by the warmth I felt in my chest knowing that she was there with me, but for the first time I can give her a proper name.

The clearing of the forest looks like always, with a small pond in the middle and a big rock where we sit to eat our picnic basket content while we throw pieces of bread to the squirrels. I take off my shoes and put my feet in the water, it's cold but I don't care since it's hot today. Ruby laughs again by my side while she takes her T-shirt and pants off and jumps in the pond wearing only her underwear, splashing water around and making me yell at her. She calls me encouraging me to jump into the pond too and I don't think twice: I get rid of my dress and I follow her. Our laughs echo through the clearing while we swim and we play, then she kisses me. I feel so happy...

Everything changes all of a sudden. I'm lost in the middle of the woods and I cross my arms over my chest shaking, it's dark and I'm barely able to see a handful of grey trees around me, there aren't flowers or animals except for a creepy owl with yellow eyes that stares at me quietly from a branch. I walk some steps hesitant till I hear a howl in the distance. I remain still while listening scared and all of a sudden a choir of howls blast behind me. I run off even if I know that I don't have a chance of evading my pursuers, wolves are way faster than me and they're getting closer even if I can't see them, I feel their paws hitting the leaves on the forest ground and their hot breath grazes my nape but I keep running as fast as I can, trying to not stumble on trees roots or slip on the stones. I need to find her, she's the only one that can help me, the only one that can fight the wolves... Where is she?

"Rosie! Help me!"

I wake up hearing my own scream echoing through my mind. I sit down on the sofa-bed and rub my head groggily. This time the end was different but not the way I was expecting, it's still a nightmare but at least now I know who I'm looking for while running desperate: the major's dog.

"What a weird dream..." I think confused till I see the box of chocolates on the kitchen table and I remember. "Oh my God... Oh my God!" my cheeks turn into dark red while I cover my mouth with my hand. Hottie Major was here yesterday, she brought me a present, she watched a movie with me lying on my bed and then somehow we ended up having a heavy make out session. I'm not even sure how it started: I looked at her right into her eyes, she kissed me, I kissed her and everything went out of control. Sometimes I feel that my rational mind and my body are going in two different directions when I'm with her. I don't understand what happens... when I feel her heat, her scent, I turn into another person: like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde but, instead of turning into a psychopathic killer, I turn into a creature made of pure lust. At least she was right about one thing: my abdomen and head don't ache anymore, I feel fine and well-rested... but I miss her and I can't wait to see her again.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I ask myself out loud. "You look like a poor kid who's in love with the popular girl in the high school, sighing every time you see her coming into the cafeteria." The truth is that because of my nomadic lifestyle I never lived that experience, the first teenage platonic love, but this is different since my crush doesn't walk past me without acknowledging my existence... she kissed me... and maybe I just got a little carried away when I kissed her back, but she started it. I don't understand it, does she like me? This must be the case since yesterday evening she made me... I can't even think about it without blushing. Why does she like me? I'm not that interesting, there's nothing special about me besides my drawings, but she's beautiful, smart, rich, the hottie major... she could get anyone she wants. Why me? This is absurd. I shake my head unable to find an answer.