I need it‼️

REALLY DUDE!!!!

     It was the day of this long awaited date. I woke up around 10 to go on my morning run. I enjoy running it gets my mind off of things. I put my headphones in and began playing 'Be careful' by Cardi B. I love her soooo much because she is me when I'm by myself. I was running 🏃🏽‍♀️ when I seen lil dude with no shirt on and letting a girl out his house. We made eye contact and he looked scared. I just looked away and continued to run trying not to get mad because he's not my boyfriend but that just confused me a whole lot. I made it two blocks away when I got a text.
Papi😍😝: It's not what it looked like (read 10:35am)
I shook my head and turned on my read notifications. I was kind of sad because I thought he was different,I thought he was going to make me change my ways of needing other guys for sex. I guess I was wrong.
Papi😍😝: love wya? (read 10:37 am)
I rolled my eyes really hard
Papi 😍😝: Roll them bitches again laloni and I know you reading my shit 😒 (read 10:40 am)
Papi 😍😝: let me explain please (read 10:43am)
Papi 😍😝: Fuck it Im goin to look for you (read 10:47am)
I simply turned my headphones up and blasted 'fuck you' by meek mill. I knew he wasn't going to come look for me and I didn't want him to. I want him to leave me alone. It wasn't long before I seen his car riding slowly next to me. I paused my music on a slick so he would think I still couldn't hear him. "Laloni! Get in the car please and let me talk to you" "I seen you pause the music I know you hear me" " Get in please I don't want to have to put you in it my self" "Leave me alone please! you really blowin mines right now" I said really mad at this point. That when he sped up and blocked my way. He jumped out the car picked me up and sat me in the passenger side but not before putting on child lock. I didn't say anything and neither did he. I put my headphones back in and leaned on the window. He put his hand on my thigh and I moved it as quickly as I could. He gripped the stirring wheel tightly and began driving really fast. I could tell he was mad and I dont know why when he did it. " can you slow down a little please?" I said lowly. I guess he didn't hear me so i spoke louder "can you slow down a little please?" I touched his leg. He look at me and back at the road. "Now you wanna talk to me" He said doing what I asked. I didn't respond and just looked forward noticing we were on the highway. " Can you let me explain now please?" "Listen, Im not your girlfriend nor your wife so you're not in titled to tell me anything... definitely since I don't know your name" I said as if I didn't care. "You rightt" Once he said that I was crushed. " BUT.... I want you to know because you will be my girlfriend and possibly my wife" He said dead tf serious *TI voice*
"You are jumping off the deep end sir" I said blankly  "Isreal .... my name is Isreal Smith, Im 23 years old, Im a personal trainer for the old niggas and a drug dealer on the side. Now you know something about me " He said blankly.
We were driving for an hour before we stopped at a grave yard. He got out grabbed my hand and lead me to a tombstone. "The girl you seen was my ex, we haven't been together for 5years" I could tell he was getting choked up. " ummm... she got pregnant a year before we broke up, once she gave birth we came to the conclusion we were completely done and co parenting was best." He looked at me and a tear fell down his face. I grabbed him to sit down on the ground and sat next to him. I wiped his tears and let him continue. " The day after they go-" He began to sob. "Take your time and breathe" I said comforting him the best I could. "The day after they got home from the hospital.. They were sleeping and she rolled over on her and she suffocated." "Im sorry Izzy" I said as I continued to hold him and wipe his tears. " Today is my baby's birthday, she's 5. That's why I wanted to take you out and get my mind off of it but Kiara showed up at my door this morning crying so I couldn't be cold hearted so I let her in and I held  her til she stopped crying which is when you see me letting her out." "I understand, I wasn't mad just a little confused on what was happening" " Ok, listen Laloni I want you and only you.... you don't have to second guess that" "what was her name" "kiara, i said that" I laughed "not your ex fool, your daughter" " Im going to tell you this but don't get freaked out" " Ok I promise" " Her name was loni" "awww a name that fit royalty" I said laughing. "You ready?" He asked. "If you are" I said. He stood up grabbed my hand and lead me to the car. "want me to drive?" I asked. "let you drive my baby you buggin" " please you never let me drive shit I can't even run without you forcing me in your car" I said side eyeing him. "Ightt lil baby you drive" He said as he opened the drivers door. I got in and he jumped in. About 1 minute later he said "girl what you waiting for drive slow poke" " Im sorry you seat is so far back" I said laughing because I'm really short. "short ass" He said under his breath "watch it lil dude" I said snapping my head at him. He laughed and we pulled off towards the highway. He rested his hand on my thigh and fell asleep. We later reached my house around 2pm so i woke him. "Izzy ... Izzy wake up we here" I said softly. "hmmmm" "wake up lil dude" " no im tired lil mama" "Isreal you are in a car man get up and u can go back to sleep in my bed" When I said that he shot up and said "with you in it?" I laughed "yes, Izzy I will lay with you" "Ok lets go" We walked in my house I grabbed his hand and lead him up stairs. I took my clothes off and walked in my closet. That's when I felt Izzy grab a hand full of my ass. "Hands off sir" "let me taste you" " umm no izzy" "come on its been two weeks since then" " Isreal I'm gonna tell you this straight, Im use to just giving myself up to men easily but yet they are chosen wisely and quite frankly Im tired of doing that and you know who changed my mind set?" "who?" " You did in these short two weeks... you've showed me my worth something I grew up not knowing I had so I want to take that part of what ever this is slow and also you're tired remember" " Ok lil mama but don't walk around damn near naked and expect me not to get hard." He said grabbing his hard wood through his briefs. My eyes got big. "woah there lil dude come on you're definitely sleepy let's go to sleep now" I said grabbing his hand leading him to the bed. He laid down and so did I. He cuddled behind me with his wood between my butt and that when I realized Im only in my boy shorts and sports bra. "Izzy" "hmmm" "can you let me up to put clothes on" "do you usually sleep in clothes?" "no" "sooo why do you need clothes now than" " because you're hard" " Im ok lil mama go to sleep" "Isreal no let me up your not ok" "yo shut yo ass up and go to sleep ... Im hard because you fine asf and putting on clothes not stopping shit so take yo ass to sleep" He said demanding again turning me on. "Now we both having problems" He said laughing and I noticed his hand was in between my legs and he could feel my wetness outside my shorts. "asshole go to sleep" I said laughing and eventually going sleep.