Izzy‼️ 3 months later..... "Izzy wake up" I hear loni say while shaking me. "What girl it's the middle of the night?" I said groggy. "It's happening again" She said with her voice cracking. For the past month she been saying she has a dream of her C section and them taking our baby. I pulled the covers back and said "Climb on" tellin her to lay on top of me. "Boy no we don't get down like that." She said scrunching her face. No cap loni a hard nut to crack I been trying to make things right since the baby shower. "Ok then go to sleep and leave me alone." "Ok fine" She said climbing on top of me. "See it wasn't that hard ma" I said slapping her ass. "Stop Isreal" "Ughh why you doing this laloni ?" "What?" "Actin like you don't miss us and what we had come on you know Im trying you just not tryna hear a nigga" I said semi raising my voice and then talking low. "Ughh leave me alone" She said and I pushed her off of me and got up to sleep in the guess room.
Lonii‼️ I cried silently to myself because I do miss us a lot. He just added to the list of hurt I've been through something he said he would never do. I do see that he tries but there's a lot going on in my head that I don't know how to handle right now.
Izzy‼️ I laid there in the dark scrolling through old pictures of loni throughout the pregnancy.
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she genuinely looked happy and I dont see that anymore. Yes 9/10 it because of losing the baby but she needs happiness to be happy. She just wont let it in. I signed deeply to myself and go ip going back to the room. I seen loni balled into a ball crying. I got in the bed and turned her to face me and pulled her extremely close to me. I wiped her tears and said "You gotta talk to me ma because this is deeper than what you telling me.Im ready when you are." I kissed her forehead and lips of course she didn't kiss back but its ok. She snuggled her head into my chest and dozed off while i played in her hair. "I love you" She said lowly and I smiled that was the first time she's said that to me in a long time. I would always say it to her but never got a response anymore. "Nigga I said I love you" She said with a slight attitude. I chuckled because she being a hypocrite "I love you too ma" "Mmhm you better" "There goes the loni I remember" I said then I heard light snores.
