The Dark Truth

Monster?: Chapter 16

7:08. I have an hour left until I'm supposed to be there. I finish off my eyeliner and look in the mirror. the dress fit me perfectly but it hasn't been on sale for years and I know I wouldn't be able to fit my old one. he must have had it made professionally. Just for me? I look like I've gone back in time, the only difference is I'm curvier and more of an adult face. I look up at my messy bun and shake my head as I take it down letting my curly hair fall. I'm not the same little girl too afraid to stand up against a waitress. I'm an adult that fought against batman, despite that being practice of course. I grab my purse and walk to my elevator. As soon as I hit the main floor a man dressed in a suit, sunglasses and has a nicely shaven beard is waiting for me. "Lizzy. I'm here to pick you up for Mr. J." I nod my head and play with my dress, "and your name is?" He's standing up completely straight and I feel intimidated. "My apologies, I'm Frost, Mr. J's firsthand man." I smile and we walk out to a black 2013 Cadillac ATS. Frost holds the door open for me and I get in. It smells new and the windows are tinted. Frost gets into the drivers seat and were on our way.

We pull up to the building me and Selina came to the first night I was here. despite it only being 7:45 its packed. we park and I'm escorted into the building. we go to the VIP area where I saw j for the first time in forever. Frost enters first and I wait for him to signal for me to walk in. a couple of guys walk out and I lower my head as to not be noticed. Frost sticks his head out of the beaded door and nods for me to come in. I walk in to see J sitting on a long golden couch with a mirror behind it. he's sitting upright with his hands on his cane and looking at me intensely. I stand in front of the door just staring at him as if it was for the first time. i guess it kind of is the first time, because ive finally realized how much he's changed. "beautiful, just as if it were that night so many years ago." I shiver at how deep his voice is. he's wearing a loosely put on suit without the jacket and I motion towards him, "as handsome as that night, just a bit more relaxed." J smirks a bit and stands up and walks over to me. he circles me as if I'm prey and then stops behind me. he pulls me hair away from my ear and whispers into my ear, "theirs only one difference.." my heart starts beating faster at his proximity to me. I feel him pull up all my hair and skillfully put it into a bun. he puts his hands on my shoulders and leads me to look in the mirror that's above the couch. j pushes his body against mine from behind as he leans down to whisper in my ear again. "better, dontchya think?" I turn around and look at j. He stands there with a serious expression on his face and I instantly want to cry. "can we sit?" I try to ask but it comes out as a whisper. somehow he hears me and motions to the couch as he goes to sit. "Frost. regular, and for the lady, vodka." I sit down and as he mentions me he glances at me with a smile, showing off his silver teeth. j is laid back with his legs spread a bit, I on the other hand is sitting up straight with my legs crossed tight. "how about we get to the point of you being here, shall we? did you remember?" he motions to the dress and I nod my head yes and sighs. "I'm so sorry ja...joker. I thought you had turned into the monster when it was me." joker sits up a bit intrigued. "what did you remember, love?" I close my eyes tight as the memory that's tortured me all day appears again. "I left you, I promised I never would and I did." all of a sudden I hear him laugh that creepy laugh of his. my eyes snap open at this and I start questioning if I remembered right. "I thought you had remembered everything for a second there. but if that was true, you wouldn't be sitting there on the verge of tears. oh no!" he stands up and claps his hands together as frost comes in. j takes the drinks from him and walks closer to me. he puts his drink on the table and leans towards me propping himself up with the couch. as he hands me the drink he smirks and growls out, "no. youd be here asking for my help." J stands back up and I shiver at his words as I sip the whiskey glass of vodka. "and why would I be asking for help?" I look up at him to see him take a sip of his glass of bright green liquid. "because, your just as bad as me. you have just as much blood on your hands as me... well maybe not as much." he laughs again but it doesn't bother me. what bothers me is what he said. I stand up quickly and puts my drink down. "what do you mean?! why do you want to torture me? why cant you just tell me everything?!" he laughs again and gets closer to me, so close I can smell his minty breath. "because, you tortured me. but! I forgive you, because you will realize the truth. and when you do, your little 'friends' will want to put you away. but me? I want to help you grow, become who your meant to be." j is now inches away from my face and I'm on the verge of tears. "why? why would they put me away? what do you mean who I'm meant to be?" tears start pouring down my face and joker wipes one away with his thumb. he leaves his hand on my cheek and looks deep into my eyes, "because, your a monster like me. i want to see you blossom like a flower. become worse than me." his voice is soft and compelling.

he leans in a bit more and lightly kisses me. I feel the fireworks I felt many years ago and I gasp in shock. j runs his hands down my arms to stop at my hands and pull them up so they rest on his shoulders. he then rest his hands on my hips and I feel myself cry harder. I have so many emotions running through me, I'm so confused. his lips are still as soft as the first day I kissed him. I start kissing him back and my hands tangle themselves in his hair. its like im on autopilot. that night rushes through my head and its not as bitter anymore. j licks my lips for entrance and I comply. he taste like alcohol and mint, it makes me want to kiss him more. that's when I remembered what hes done to Harley. my eyes snap open and I try to push him away to no avail. I decide on a different tactic and bite down on his lip hard. he stumbles back and so do I. j reaches to his lip in shock to find blood and I am breathing hard as I say "im not going to be some toy for you to use like Harley! I wont just fall for you again because you say so. I wont let you control me J." he laughs evilly and I step back a bit, "oh ill do whatever I please with you, and you will come back to me. the fact you kissed back proved that." I stand tall as I walk up to him and smirk. "i would never come back to someone who beats women. your a cocky asshole who thinks he has control over everyone. well not me." J looks at me in a bit of shock and I grab my glass and finishes the rest of the vodka and walk out.