But You'd Never Know

A New School Year

"Y/N"

"Jungkook."

I was polite.

I didn't try to make conversation with you.

You didn't even bother with me.

It was new year.

We were split up from our classes.

All the girls were in my class again.

No boys.

You weren't.

Soomi was.

You weren't.

Jaehyun was.

You weren't.

You weren't.

You weren't.

But I wished you would have been put in.

I didn't tell anyone.

No-one knew I liked you.

We were just friends.

Friends.

Nothing more.

That horrible word.

Forced into the shadows.

It was never anything more.

I wanted it to be more.

I wanted it to be so much more.

But it wasn't.

It never was.

It was killing me.

It's funny.

I was so willing to be in the shadows before.

But now, the thought made me ill.

But it was my new reality.

And I hated it.

So much.

But you'd never know.