GUCCI BOY//kth

53.) his true intentions

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"The truth is
some days I sink
more than I swim"

-stacie martin
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Cassia's POV

Delicate, sweet, kind-hearted, obedient, polite, quiet, shy, beautiful, fragile. That's usually how society would picture a fairytale princess.

There was not a single droplet of royal blood in Cassia's body, no crown, no kingdom, no castle but the same high expectations, constant presence of the public eye judging her every move and the wealth of the upper class decorating her family name.

Cassia had always been touched with a silk glove, everything had been handed to her, she never had to work for anything, whatever materialistic thing she might have desired she could easily get. Spoiled, if you will. It's hard to stay grounded when everyone around you treats you as if you are above them.

Cassia let it get to her head, she was popular at school. The bad kind. The fake friends, a lot of gossip and rumours, being used by everyone around you- kind of popular. The It-girl, the arrogant brat, the rich girl, the ice princess.

She didn't have any real friends, not one. Just Jungkook who went to a different school and a kid named Hoseok that had always been nothing but nice to her, despite her awful attitude.

For a while she followed suit, for a while she wanted to be that perfect princess. For a while she desired to make her parents happy and proud, for a while she would have sacrificed anything for perfection.

Do you see the flaw in that? Perfection. It doesn't exist. You can't reach it. Not even if you're the richest, most popular girl in town. Not even if you do everything in your power to please your stone hearted father or your unimpressed mother, not even if you train to become Korea's wealthiest CEO for years, attend meetings, take additional business and econonmy classes at a private school, do press conferences and attend galas and high society events, get perfect grades and never talk back to your parents, not even if you follow every single order and command, give up everything that you're asked to give up and swallow down your thoughts and opinions.

Not even if you change everything about who you are or want to be, to fit into the tiny box that society, your parents and everyone in this fucked up world expects you to fit into, can you reach perfection. It's impossible.

7-year-old Cassia didn't realize that. 12-year-old Cassia didn't realize that. 16-year-old Cassia didn't realize that. 18-year-old Cassia started to realize that and for 19-year-old Cassia it was already too late.

Because what's the prize of giving up who you are to achieve something you never can? You end up as a marionette. You end up without your own identity. You end up as an empty shell.

You wanna know how you end up? Broken. The high expectations, the tiny box she was forced to fit into but couldn't, broke Cassia. With the only goal she had ever been working towards, chasing after, sacrificing everything for, gone, the rose tinted glasses dipping the world around her into a blissful, dream like, fairytale state- shattered.