Breaking Boundaries

Chapter 45 - "Rabbit"

●Just to clear things up, the person she was being comforted by in the previous chapter was Logan's mother.●

Towards the end of the chapter it will be random mix of Gino and Rylee's POV's. Gino's will be in italic font.

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We come to a standstill outside two wide Brown doors. This is it.
I have to see him, but do I talk to him? What do I say?
Do I say anything?
Is there any point?

She walks in first and I follow right behind her, my heart drops.

She senses it and squeezes my hand tighter as if to say "I'm here, it's ok."

It's not ok though... This is not ok!

Logan's always been someone that holds everyone up, you know?
Me. He holds me up.
Now he's laying here helpless.
This isn't how I imagined it though, he looks so peaceful.
I walk towards him and bring my hand towards his face.
His beautiful face.
Nothing matters anymore suddenly, any worries and problems I thought I had last night have gone.
Logan matters.
That's the only thing that's important.
Why did he do this?
I can't understand it...
Was his depression that deep?
I had no idea. Not until last night anyway and just the thought of him doing that to himself makes me shiver.

The door slams I turn and see that I'm now alone.
She's left me to be with him...
What do I do?
I do what any other scared, heartbroken person would.
I climb onto the bed and lay into his chest.
Now, this... this is what I needed.
Not Gino, Hunter or anyone else.
I needed Logan.
His scent... finally.
He has a remembrance tattoo for Bobby on his chest, I smooth my fingers over it and somehow I get a small amount of peace?
Is that strange?

"Lee?"

"I would slap you so hard right now if we weren't in a hospital."

His voice sends tingles throughout my body. I could have lost this big idiot, I'm so fucking glad he's ok.

"Why did you do it?"
It's the only thing that's been spinning through my mind since last night.
The thought of him wanting to end his life put me through hell.
Maybe he doesn't want to talk about it? Maybe I shouldn't have mentioned it so soon? But this is Logan - no secrets Logan. - he has to give me something, anything, to help me understand.

"Not now." Of course not now, how insensitive am I? I'm so selfish, I haven't even asked if he's ok.

"Of course, I'm sorry. Loge.."

I start my sentence and he cuts me off immediately.

"Lee, I love you but please just go." The words cut so deep, I can't...

He hugs me into him kisses the top of my forehead then shuffles away slightly - as if to say, Just go. I turn towards him kiss his messy head of hair and whisper a small I love you before climbing off of him and the bed and walking out of the door. I've never seen him like this before, it's heart-wrenching to experience someone you love - change.

I know he's obviously not ready to talk to me, what can I do? 

Wait. Wait for him to be ready, ready for anything, to see me, speak to me or even just sit in silence. I'll be waiting.

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Logan's POV
I had to send her away. If I don't keep my distance... I want her back. Fuck I want her back so bad but... She's happy without me. With other people. With another fucking guy. I heard about everything whilst I was away.