Breaking Boundaries

Chapter 54 - "Riddles"

The worst kind of heartbreak is watching the person you love, love someone else.

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"I don't understand...?"

I was hoping I didn't have to see him for a while, but its always the same. He shows up at my worst moments like he's my magnet or something? He knows when I need something, someone.. What possibly could he mean?

"I came over to your house to talk to you around an hour ago, to apologize for making you leave. But I got a lot more than I bargained for."

Why do guys always speak in riddles?

"What are you talking about? Say it, Gino!" my palms are getting clammy, I'm secretly praying that he's right, I don't know what he knows or what he has but please, please be something...

"I heard something, something, but I can't tell you until I can be sure it's true. Just know that whatever I have to do from today will be for you, I don't what you to be with him... but I'd do anything for you."

What the fuck is the point in this? why tell me? why would he do that if he isn't gonna tell me anything else? what a complete jackass. Surely he can't possibly leave me hanging like this? why would he help us anyway? why would he want to do something which would allow me and Hunter be together? for me? bullshit. I know he loves me but why an earth would he go so far as to helping me be with something else... not him.
You know what? I'm not interested, I'm not bothered. I need to not think about this and get on with the job. I'm trying to move forward not backwards. What the fuck is he doing here though?

"Wait, why are you here? I thought that you wasn't gonna come back to work?" I get an instant eye roll from him. "It's the only way." There we have it once again, riddles.
The way he's looking at me is like he's both mesmerised and confused by me. I'm not sure which one. He's deep in thought again, that's never a good sign. I can't be dealing with this again? I knew it would be hard to face him again but I didn't think we would have to work together again... where it all started. There's love here, a lot of love. There's hurt - he hasn't hurt me though, don't think he's capable of hurting me, not purposely anyway. I wish I could just be normal around him? Not sexual - normal. Me and Gino, how we were. The sarcastic comments, the petty little arguments. I just want that back but we won't ever be like that again because I want something else and it's not him, I don't know if it's the right decision that I've made but I feel like it is. If it isn't then I've made a mistake and I'll have to live with that.

"So are we working together?" Part of me hopes not but the other part of me can't wait. He motivates me in a way no one else has been able to before on the job. That's the kind of person you have to work with because you can't take you're eye off the ball. If you're not focused and ready - you can get it some deep shit. You have to be able to trust your partner and I do. I trust him completely, even if he's being strange with whatever information he's holding.

G

Are we working together? Mhm. But we shouldn't be. Well, I shouldn't be working with her. It fucking hurts like nothing I've ever felt before, that's my Lee and she's not mine - she never was though was she? I have no rights over her, she didn't do anything wrong I knew I was playing with fire. She never not once told me we would be together and live happily ever after, I guess I realised what I wanted when it was too late - I realised I needed that happily ever after when she realised hers would be with someone else. I'm finding it hard to be around her right now, I couldn't stop thinking about her and how I made her leave my place. That wasn't how I treat her and just because she doesn't want to be with me gives me no rights to treat her like that all of a sudden, so after hours of me wracking my brain about whether or not I should go apologise I decided I should I'd be a fucking arsehole not to.