The Other One

I Remember when

I remember being trapped inside my own mind. I couldn't control anything. I even remember being without a soul. The horrible things that I did. Especially what I did to Ethan. Something that I couldn't forgive myself. I don't even know how I'm here right now. Perfectly fine. It was like a horrible nightmare not waking up. I wanted to scream so bad but I couldn't make a sound. It was like I wasn't in control of my body. I wanted to say that I was sorry but no. Instead I destroyed things that were in front of me. The people who cared about me, are scared of me. I'm even scared of myself. I don't know if I'm sane right now. What if this is another nightmare and another temper tantrum breaks out again? But it wasn't my fault, they made me this way. A stone cold killer. I was tortured repeatedly. I wasn't allowed to show emotion, no mercy. When I hurt those people I felt nothing. But today is about change. I might go back home. I can see my mom and be with Ethan. I missed him so much. There's been things that I missed so much. I missed working and going to school. I been in this hell hole for so long. There's only one thing on my mind. To kill Liam. I'm done being a prisoner and I'm ready to fight. Besides dealing with Liam I have to deal with other problems such as my friends. Especially Jasmine. I know it wasn't her fault. She was doing her job. That's all she was doing. Gyles I could never forgive him. All that he has put me through. Grayson, I need to have a talk with him. I have a feeling that he was developing feelings for me. It would make sense because of how long he's been with me. Besides our bond can be the reason for this. Ethan there's so many things I have to catch up with him and apologize for. I didn't forget our proposal. I still have to give him an answer. I'm just scared of the pain I will cause for everyone. I don't think I will ever forgive myself if I hurt anyone.